It's been almost one month since I last posted. I'm really posting less these days. What do I have to say? Hmmm. This semester... It feels, very different. Firstly, the previous semester felt like the shortest as compared to all the other years. So it is quite unbelievable that it's August now. I might be still living in March.
This semester... It feels, different. Different from last semester. Actually no, maybe not this semester. It might be just me. Me and the person. And the person will know who I am referring to cause I've mentioned it before. I... I want us to be happy everyday. We have less than 4 months left till the end of this year and I want this year to be a super fun and memorable year.
This semester, I can feel all the pressure adding up. There are times when I really don't feel like doing anything and just want to sleep. And never wake up. There are times when I just want to cry. There are times when I just want someone to care. I think I have too much responsibility on my back. Sometimes, my one saturday can be used for 3-4 things, and my one free period can have like 3 activities I'm supposed to go. And on top of that, I'm don't really understand physics and PPV, and now, maybe even chem. HOW GREAT. If my weekends are busier than my weekdays, and I do not have time on weekdays, then WOW when will I ever have time?
Let's not talk about sad stuff. Happy stuff happy stuff!
DSA CAMP!! My group is as follows:
Through this camp, I concluded that guys are really very immature and girls are much better than them =D

Ohright, hahaha, thanks to the brilliant mind of AMANDA THE SUPERWOMAN muahahaha, fleming drumming team is really forming!! I know I can't run fast and can't win points for my house, but at least now, I can play my part and help to hype up the atmosphere etc. I really hope that one day, the spirit of houses will be like that of Harry Potter! It's really really cool for that. I also still support my own view that the winner of the house cup should not be judged mainly by their performance on sports day because that simply means that the lucky house that has more people in track team will win. They should encompass different aspects of "winning" such as other sports, or even  chess ( fleming owned the rest last time), or maybe maybe number of ppl with CAP > 4.5!! That would be a much fairer estimate of the "champion house". Nonetheless, the drumming sessions were very fun and I hope that those who came enjoyed and valued the experience as much as I do. No one else is doing this other than us!! =DD

OH! National day performance! I made like the bravest decision in my whole life so far, which is to take up a solo part. No doubt it's only 3 lines, but that's enough for me to be nervous till I almost died. Haha.

Muahahaha I look quite okay after all. I'm never gonna do that again. I don't sound nice anyways.

Ohright ohright, class outing!! Hui Min did not go. I envisioned myself to be emo-ing at a corner, blowing bubbles, but DARN IT i forgot to bring my bubble thingy. haha. I brought my frisbee though. It was fun =D I spent most of the time with Anzhi and Chen Wei in the end.
We look so retarded. Haha. Though there were unhappy moments, it was fun after all. I... I liked it when Chen Wei and I went to sit on the beach when Anzhi was bathing. The feeling was nice. The sun wasn't too bright, and the breeze was really nice. Haha. I'm gonna do that with my boyfriend next time! HAHAHHA. If I'll even have one~

I also went to attend the YOG Opening Ceremony Rehearsal and NDP Heartlands Celebration- Bishan. It was great to be there. These two major events of this year are really close together and I thought that I would not be able to attend any of them. I went for both in the end! Happy happy~ You know, really, it's one of those rare moments that I really really feel proud to be a Singaporean, and dare to say it out. Usually, maybe it's the environment I'm in whereby there are many international students in my school, or just that the rest of the teenagers really don't care about their country. But I don't know. It seems to be really odd to be patriotic. Normally people will go "eeee" if someone advocates for patriotism. I mean, really. I can't imagine like Hui Min saying the pledge with pride etc. But at the YOG and NDP thingy, I really felt it. The people around me, they are all not afraid to show their love for their country. I think it's  the first time I've sang the National Anthem loudly for like 6-7 years? I remember in P1 when we started singing it we all sang super loudly. Then don't know since when, around P4-5, I suddenly realised that all my friends around me are not singing it loudly. Some even refused to sing. Really, seriously, do they just not bother, or do they don't like Singapore? I think, sometimes I may complain this and complain that about Singapore, but at the end of the day, it is still my home, it is where I belong. I don't think I can ever find a better place than this.

Tribute to Singapore
Whenever I am feeling low, I look around me and I know
There's a place that will stay within me, wherever I may choose to go
I will always recall the city, know every street and shore
Sail down the river which brings us like, winding through my Singapore
This is HOME, truly, where I know I must be,
Where my dreams wait for me, where the river always flows
This is HOME, surely, as my senses tell me
This is where I won't be alone, for this is where I know it's home


We're a rainbow of a thousand colours lighting up the sky
Share the Singapore heartbeat, together you and I
We are one Singapore, one nation strong and free
A thousand different voices, sing in harmony
We will stand together, together hand in hand
As one united people, for Singapore, my homeland


Believing in trust, it must, be possible to overcome anything
There's so much to do, there's so much we can contribute


Where I belong, where I keep my heart and soul
Where dreams come true for us
Where we walk together hand in hand towards a future so bright
Where we are one big family
I want the whole world to know I wanna shout it out loud
That this is where I know I belong


We are Singapore, we are Singapore, 
We will stand together, hear the lion roar
We are Singapore, we are Singapore
We're a country strong and free forever more
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Above are all from my memory. Don't know whether it's pure drilling into my head since I was young or what, but I really feel it when I sing those songs. I don't just sing for fun. Actually this does not just apply to Singapore larh. Just change "Singapore" to other countries will do. I bet they will feel the same for their country too.

Okay, enough said. me, got to go. =D

Really, why, why do Singaporeans not like their country?
Is it cause they're complacent and don't care?
Is it cause they like other countries more?
Why? I really wanna know.
Me, for me, I do <3 my country. But sometimes, I just don't dare to say it out.
Is that me being bad, being disrespectful?
Which is more disgraceful actually?
Not liking your country, or like but do not dare to show it?
I think it's the latter...