I AM A PRINCESS. YES I AM. in my dreams, perhaps.

2012!

2012-01-18T22:15:00.003+08:00

Ello people. Sorry lag super alot again. YAY new year, new beginning! AHahah :D

Shall not talk about unhapppy stuff!!!

Let's see what's fun about my life. Hmm. Taiwan people are coming!!! ZOMG I realized that I haven't posted anything about the trip yet ._. Shall do so one day. Yupp!!

Well well... OH Mr Loo is super funny!! 604 ftw man!! If Mr Robin knows what Mr Loo do to us in class ah, I think he'll faint ttm haha.

This sem, have many many APs coming up! I should be taking all 4 :O Should be alright cept Chem >.< Really GG ttm de!! Needa study like mad. Ohgosh :(

I like Bio lah really. Oh joining the biomedical symposium again hahah. Learnt alot alot of things from the first training session just now. Hope will perform well and not let the school down :D

LOL SIAN my post is so non-substantial. Like all useless stuff de >.< DIE. Okay, will post pictures up soon :)

OH OH I've got a Polaroid for my bday pressie this year!!! From my cousins <3 So happy hahhaha. I've never even touched one before this XD I damn noob right hahah ._. So many ppl have and just take it for granted, but I really cherish mine luhh :)

That's it for now ba!

Hello!!!

2011-11-05T15:00:00.000+08:00

ELLO ELLO ELLO ELLO!!!

Just so you know, my this blog isn't dead yet!!

Hostel internet blocks blogger, so I couldn't post.

Posting from my ARP lab haha. But toot, here I using the lab com not my com, so no pics to show too ):

Life has been okay... I guess...

Just survived a week of SIYCF practice + ARP daily. Not bad right? I know I'm pro ^^

SIYCF is fun :D 5 days full day choir. Not bad eh (: It's nice...

Like, the people there really like choir...

I've been in choir since P2 you see... Choir girl through and through. Though my singing sucks XD

I like the songs too... The cloths of heaven <3 <3. Nice ttm.

Life's cool :D

Hi Blog

2011-09-03T19:50:00.000+08:00

Realized that I haven't posted here for a long time. Mostly due to the fact that my acc here is my hotmail. Then whenever I wanna sign in to blog, I have to log out my gmail. Which is kinda bad cos my gmail is like the first tab on my browser and logged in 24/7. Downloaded rockmelt. Using this to post here. LOL (:

Sept hols alr. Kinda fast...
Last posted here in May. So let's see. June hols... Kinda fun. Yeah. Like, sort of enjoyed it... Then school reopen. Not bad for a start... Youth Day and stuff. Then Beijing. Then back. Then Tioman. Then now. Yeah.

I should post here more often. My private blog is kinda emo now. I mean. Amanda's never meant to be an emo lil kid. (: So, yupp. Back to the superwoman AMANDAAAAA :D

2011-05-31T00:30:00.000+08:00

I guess I need to stay happy.. It's like.. One of those times that I am super emo againz. And I should also stop complaining to people. My problems, I should resolve. Why do I trouble people. As if anyone is obliged to listen to me liddat. As if they don't have their own problems, don't have things to do... I'm sorry...

Anyways:

Hope I've done that, one way or other, during the selection camp. I see endless potential in everyone...

Right, went Kbox with Mr Yee... Shall post the photos up next time. It's kinda sad that he's leaving. Since Year 1 leh... Will miss him!

And at last I see the light, and it's like the fog has lifted...

And at last I see the light, and it's like the sky is new...

Tangled (Rapunzel)- I See the Light

Life update XD

2011-04-22T23:55:00.002+08:00

Whee picture time! I <3 pictures XD

Muahaha my bluetackbakery. CUTE right! Stuff you do during a boring lesson :b

Oh muahah stuff you do during hostel year :b I FILLED A POOL IN MY ROOM haha XD beat that

Heh my current phone wallpaper. Lovely lil' nephew lucas <3 UBER CUTE!

heh TOLDYA HE'S CUTE. carrying my bag... O.o love the moment where he fell asleep on my shoulders when i was carrying him XD

OHWELL lol random photo. But. what does leadership mean to u? what does responsibility mean to u? what does commitment mean to u? what do these badges mean to u, seriously! (quote bev, i look like a girl scout >.< )

Time flies. It's been almost five months into the year already.

I have to let go. I have to forgo. I have to forget.

I have to be myself. I have to focus.

I have to do the things that I have to do. And the things that I can do. And the things that I want to do.

I have to WAKE UP. Those days are never gonna come back again.

I have to... and I will... be happy...

First term of 2011

2011-03-13T23:10:00.000+08:00

Long time no post! hehe. Just some pics ba! Since I'm back home and can post em. Stupid hostel internet doesnt allow me to post pics here.

CNY performance!! SO cute rights, the rabbit year. But in the end they don't allow us to wear it >.<

Research Congress Poster (:

Mannnnn, practical circuitry. I hope my prac test was okay...

where

2011-02-22T23:21:00.002+08:00

vday!

2011-02-14T19:48:00.001+08:00

hehe happy vday everyone!

我回来了

2011-02-03T23:12:00.000+08:00

发现好久好久没有在这里写东西了。其实另一个博客也是啦。宿舍的网很讨厌，就很慢的样子。别人的倒还好。是我位子风水不好么？呵呵。今天初一呢，大家新年快乐吧。在这新的一年里，是说2011年，到此为止还好的。有很伤心很忧郁的时候，也有很开心很兴奋的时候。该怎么说呢？我觉得我该长大了？已经过了17岁生日，不能再像以前那样幼稚单纯的了，不能再依赖别人，不能再希望有人会逗我开心事事依着我。今年课虽然少了很多，但是“其他”的东西却多了。觉得有很多东西等着我去做，很多人事物得靠着我。不是说我在自夸或炫耀什么的，可是就这样觉得。我责任很多。在房间白板上用红色写了大大的字：专注。是的，我得专注。其他无关紧要的东西不能，不该，不需去想。有更大更重要的事等着我去做。我的生命不再为自己而活，而是为大家而活的。不该自私的只想到自己。。。是的，得专注。专注呀。专注。

上个星期台北交换学生来了。觉得台北和新加坡很像。她们人都好好。期待年尾去那里！

End of year

2010-11-21T23:52:00.000+08:00

I haven't posted yet for another long time. I don't know what to say. Pictures speaks a thousand words right? Here they are.

Letters I wrote for 405 peeps on the last day of school (learning day)

After Chinese script checking, we went class outing---- Climbing Bukit Timah Hill!

The very last day of school. We were supposed to be cleaning up our classroom but who cares. I <3<3<3 Hui Min and Anzhi. We had a great year together, and I thank them alotalot. I really do not want to change classes. I still want them to be beside me. It just feels, different without them, like I'm lacking something.

Former 203-ians! After 4 years tgt, I doubt we will have another 2 more years. So, a last photo =D

YAY I FINALLY HAVE THE CHANCE TO PLAY WITH LUCAS! =D

That's my life so far. O.o

Nothing exceptional. Smile. =D

Bubble bath

2010-10-23T21:43:00.000+08:00

I just wanna have a loooooong bubble bath to wash away all my stress and worries...

请继续任性

2010-10-08T00:19:00.002+08:00

要是有朝一日我能被这样宠的话，会多么高兴啊。很甜蜜的一首歌。

陶喆-请继续任性
再看过你传给我的每一通简讯   还是很甜蜜
第一次牵你的手我紧张到不行   多美的回忆
但现在你每天对我生气搞得我真的不想再理你
你如果真的要这样任性我只好说 Oh..请继续
You are my sweetie 不讲理怎么我离不开你
You are my baby   宠着你我还是那么爱你

你不要疯狂的偷看我的简讯你有点神经
不要一直追问我和朋友去哪里不想告诉你
可现在你每天管东管西搞得我真的很想要揍你
你如果真的要这样任性我只好说 Oh..请继续
You are my sweetie 不讲理怎么我离不开你
You are my baby   宠着你我还是那么爱你 oh~爱你

常常被你惹的心里好气搞得真的不想再理你
你如果真的要这样任性   我只好说 Oh..请继续 oh~
You are my sweetie 不讲理可是我离不开你
You are my baby 宠着你我还是那么爱你 (that'sright)
我还是永远会这么爱你我的心里永远都只有你

August life

2010-09-03T22:54:00.000+08:00

OMG how time flies... Today is the last day of the term. I feel... Sad. Really. This term seems super short, but yet super stressful too.

Council Selection Camp. With only a handful of meetings and a super short amount of preparation time, I'm surprised at how we managed to hold it that well. I must say that all councilors are really very responsible and efficient people. The first night was Friday night, we missed CCA for the final briefing. We had a short night game before lights off. I must admit that being a facil is much better than being a camper. I do not have to hurry while bathing as I do not have lights out. After bathing, we continued to do the teachers' day presents. I really need to thank Chris, Cheryl, Wen Li and Janice for staying up so late to help. The second day was a series of activities and I stayed under the hot sun for the whole morning (tannnnnnned!!!). Third day morning, after IEMA, we had around 2 hours to sleep, but I must really thank Wen Li who, instead of sleeping, continued to help me do the teachers day presents. After break camp, we had a super long evaluation (3hr+) in the hall. We arranged the tables into a big circle (: Then, I stayed to do teachers' day presents all the way till 9+. It's funny sometimes how my body is like, supernormal. I woke up at 2.30am and can stay hyper all the way till 9.30pm.. :b I must say that through this camp, I really got to know my juniors more, and about how to distinguish those with the characteristics we want and those without.

Sports Day. OMG OMG OMG FLEMING GOT SECOND!!!!!!!!!! This is really heartening. We went from 1st to 4th. Then slowly to 3rd. And this year we're 2nd. FLEMING!!! May our eagle fly high. Ms Wong said in class break that she heard that "Fleming is always last, but they have good leaders". Hmm. Like, Eliza? Raghav? Donovan? Marianne? Jia Qing? Hahahha XD Shrugs. But anyway, I'm really really very happy and proud of Fleming. Kudos to all the runners which brought glory to our house! I know I can't run, but woooooots~ We have people who can. So, jiayous for those people! I've also noticed a few juniors with potential. Hope they can remain enthu. Actually, yeah, I've always felt that when you involve people and give them responsibilities, they'll be different, and I tried during Sports Day and it sort of worked. Even simple stuff will make a difference. For example, I appointed two year 2 girls to be in charge of the face painting. They look playful and reluctant at first but after I explained to them what to do etc in a serious tone, I can see that they've changed. They agreed, took charge, and really went around painting people's faces. GOODJOB to them. Yowl are in my good books now =D

Teachers Day. As a co-I/C of gifts, I must really thank all the SCs, and non-SCs who came and help. Non SCs namely Emily, Hui Min, Jiaqin, Jiurui, Jia Huan, Cai Yu, He Ning, Tianran. Thanks alotalot. Without any one of your help, we would not have completed the gifts in time. Thanks so much (though I doubt anyone will see this post). I shall not continue to elaborate about teachers' day. Just, I think that it is successful, and GOODJOB to everyone.

Choir. I've no idea why but I became the person to liaise with the external organisations for the Choir CIP, but I'm really happy that i am, cause it's what I like to do. Actually, I would like to do CIP without getting the points. Yeah. I think that it is superficial to do CIP just cause you need the points. We should do it from our heart. If it's not from your heart, then it's not worth doing. yupp. Tianran and I also managed to get the teachers' day gift for Miss Lim. And super sorry and super thankkkkkkkssss to Tianran that he did decoration of the gifts all by himself. I've always had the impression that he's a bad guy but there are certain times when he was really nice and thoughtful. Maybe, perhaps, he's not as bad as I think he is. OH choir. I went to the NUS Choir thingy yesterday. They are really pro. Their Sops are like Descants~ I don't think I can hit the note. Then today during cca Choir I had no more voice to sing the high notes already. But Miss Lim made us sing one by one >.< I sucked la seriously. Ahh wtv. Since when did I sound nice anyway. I'm not made for singing after all. Shall never sing ever again.

Tests. OMG la. I'm so dead. Took my Physics test today. Really gone case already. I did badly in my chem test also. I don't know, but I was really depressed then. I don't like. I don't like the fact that I paid attention in class and went home to do all the DIY questions but I still got lower than Anzhi. Maybe I'm reallyyyyyy very stupid. Hmm. OH AND CHINESE TEST! OMG la I wrote the number wrongly!! My 2 marks!! If not I'll get the same score as Jiaqin!! What an accomplishment. Haiz, wasted. Oh and econs test. Think it's like the only one happy thing out of a whole pile of dung. My econs test was not bad. I'm glad. Really. Kudos to myself. I really studied. It paid off. So now my best subject is econs?! WOW. <- sarcastic.

Okay, I don't know what to say already. Goodnight then!

我好想好想飞　逃离这个疯狂世界
那么多苦　那么多累　那么多莫名的泪水

July--Aug

2010-08-13T23:32:00.000+08:00

It's been almost one month since I last posted. I'm really posting less these days. What do I have to say? Hmmm. This semester... It feels, very different. Firstly, the previous semester felt like the shortest as compared to all the other years. So it is quite unbelievable that it's August now. I might be still living in March.
This semester... It feels, different. Different from last semester. Actually no, maybe not this semester. It might be just me. Me and the person. And the person will know who I am referring to cause I've mentioned it before. I... I want us to be happy everyday. We have less than 4 months left till the end of this year and I want this year to be a super fun and memorable year.
This semester, I can feel all the pressure adding up. There are times when I really don't feel like doing anything and just want to sleep. And never wake up. There are times when I just want to cry. There are times when I just want someone to care. I think I have too much responsibility on my back. Sometimes, my one saturday can be used for 3-4 things, and my one free period can have like 3 activities I'm supposed to go. And on top of that, I'm don't really understand physics and PPV, and now, maybe even chem. HOW GREAT. If my weekends are busier than my weekdays, and I do not have time on weekdays, then WOW when will I ever have time?
Let's not talk about sad stuff. Happy stuff happy stuff!
DSA CAMP!! My group is as follows:

Through this camp, I concluded that guys are really very immature and girls are much better than them =D

Ohright, hahaha, thanks to the brilliant mind of AMANDA THE SUPERWOMAN muahahaha, fleming drumming team is really forming!! I know I can't run fast and can't win points for my house, but at least now, I can play my part and help to hype up the atmosphere etc. I really hope that one day, the spirit of houses will be like that of Harry Potter! It's really really cool for that. I also still support my own view that the winner of the house cup should not be judged mainly by their performance on sports day because that simply means that the lucky house that has more people in track team will win. They should encompass different aspects of "winning" such as other sports, or even chess ( fleming owned the rest last time), or maybe maybe number of ppl with CAP > 4.5!! That would be a much fairer estimate of the "champion house". Nonetheless, the drumming sessions were very fun and I hope that those who came enjoyed and valued the experience as much as I do. No one else is doing this other than us!! =DD

OH! National day performance! I made like the bravest decision in my whole life so far, which is to take up a solo part. No doubt it's only 3 lines, but that's enough for me to be nervous till I almost died. Haha.

Muahahaha I look quite okay after all. I'm never gonna do that again. I don't sound nice anyways.

Ohright ohright, class outing!! Hui Min did not go. I envisioned myself to be emo-ing at a corner, blowing bubbles, but DARN IT i forgot to bring my bubble thingy. haha. I brought my frisbee though. It was fun =D I spent most of the time with Anzhi and Chen Wei in the end.

We look so retarded. Haha. Though there were unhappy moments, it was fun after all. I... I liked it when Chen Wei and I went to sit on the beach when Anzhi was bathing. The feeling was nice. The sun wasn't too bright, and the breeze was really nice. Haha. I'm gonna do that with my boyfriend next time! HAHAHHA. If I'll even have one~

I also went to attend the YOG Opening Ceremony Rehearsal and NDP Heartlands Celebration- Bishan. It was great to be there. These two major events of this year are really close together and I thought that I would not be able to attend any of them. I went for both in the end! Happy happy~ You know, really, it's one of those rare moments that I really really feel proud to be a Singaporean, and dare to say it out. Usually, maybe it's the environment I'm in whereby there are many international students in my school, or just that the rest of the teenagers really don't care about their country. But I don't know. It seems to be really odd to be patriotic. Normally people will go "eeee" if someone advocates for patriotism. I mean, really. I can't imagine like Hui Min saying the pledge with pride etc. But at the YOG and NDP thingy, I really felt it. The people around me, they are all not afraid to show their love for their country. I think it's the first time I've sang the National Anthem loudly for like 6-7 years? I remember in P1 when we started singing it we all sang super loudly. Then don't know since when, around P4-5, I suddenly realised that all my friends around me are not singing it loudly. Some even refused to sing. Really, seriously, do they just not bother, or do they don't like Singapore? I think, sometimes I may complain this and complain that about Singapore, but at the end of the day, it is still my home, it is where I belong. I don't think I can ever find a better place than this.

Tribute to Singapore
Whenever I am feeling low, I look around me and I know
There's a place that will stay within me, wherever I may choose to go
I will always recall the city, know every street and shore
Sail down the river which brings us like, winding through my Singapore
This is HOME, truly, where I know I must be,
Where my dreams wait for me, where the river always flows
This is HOME, surely, as my senses tell me
This is where I won't be alone, for this is where I know it's home

We're a rainbow of a thousand colours lighting up the sky
Share the Singapore heartbeat, together you and I
We are one Singapore, one nation strong and free
A thousand different voices, sing in harmony
We will stand together, together hand in hand
As one united people, for Singapore, my homeland

Believing in trust, it must, be possible to overcome anything
There's so much to do, there's so much we can contribute

Where I belong, where I keep my heart and soul
Where dreams come true for us
Where we walk together hand in hand towards a future so bright
Where we are one big family
I want the whole world to know I wanna shout it out loud
That this is where I know I belong

We are Singapore, we are Singapore,
We will stand together, hear the lion roar
We are Singapore, we are Singapore
We're a country strong and free forever more
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Above are all from my memory. Don't know whether it's pure drilling into my head since I was young or what, but I really feel it when I sing those songs. I don't just sing for fun. Actually this does not just apply to Singapore larh. Just change "Singapore" to other countries will do. I bet they will feel the same for their country too.

Okay, enough said. me, got to go. =D

Really, why, why do Singaporeans not like their country?
Is it cause they're complacent and don't care?
Is it cause they like other countries more?
Why? I really wanna know.
Me, for me, I do <3 my country. But sometimes, I just don't dare to say it out.
Is that me being bad, being disrespectful?
Which is more disgraceful actually?
Not liking your country, or like but do not dare to show it?
I think it's the latter...

june hols

2010-07-14T22:34:00.000+08:00

Wow a super late post about my june stuff. I did not really take many photos during June.. Yeah... Just a few random ones ba XD

My socks!!!!!!! Cute right ^.^

And this is soooooo sweeeet =D

Ruthanne-Amanda-Abigail

Still <3 this epic photo of bev sleeping with her hand on her phone (in case someone texts her!!) during council camp

Oh another cute sock of mine

Heart made of candles during RCLF final night

don't know why can't rotate this, but it's chocolate printed with a heart!!
YDSP world of science- materials science module

i can't rotate this too, but it's the front of the fbt wenli and i painted for chris

and guess what? this is the back =D

ok, that's it.. off to do hw =X

1234

2010-06-22T22:51:00.002+08:00

1.2.3.4 by Plain White T's

Give me more lovin then i've ever had.
Make it all better when i'm feelin sad.
Tell me that i'm special even when i know i'm not.
Make me feel good when i hurt so bad.
Barely gettin mad, I'm so glad i found you.
I love bein around you.
You make it easy, as easy as 1 2, 1 2 3 4

Theres only one thing two do three words four you, I love you.
Theres only one way two say those three words and that's what i'll do, I love you

Give me more lovin from the very start.
Piece me back together when i fall apart.
Tell me things you never even tell your closest friends.
Make me feel good when i hurt so bad.
Best that i've had.
I'm so glad that i found you.
I love bein around you.
You make it easy as easy as 1 2, 1 2 3 4

Someday, someone will sing this to me ^.^
If only it is really as easy as 1,2,3,4...

Tagged by Tianyi XD

2010-06-18T22:32:00.001+08:00

I GOT TAGGED BY TIANYI~~~ on fb. but i dun wan everyone seeing this. so yeah:

Rules: Once you've been tagged, you are supposed to write a note with 30 random things, facts, habits, or goals about you. At the end, choose any number of people to be tagged. You have to tag the person who tagged you. If I tagged you, it's because I want to know more about you.

1. I'm Amanda =D
2. I <3 purple (the lavendar kind)
3. I <3 Show Luo Zhi Xiang
4. I <3 singing
5. I <3 skating~~
6. I feel old... sixteen already... =X
7. I have the sudden feeling that I don't want holidays to end
8. I wanna go for a 毕业旅行 this year though I ain't really graduating
9. I want a dog
10. I have a terrapin
11. I had a terrapin which committed suicide
12. I had 2 fish which committed suicide too
13. I still think that I am a good owner
14. I don't know the world well, took hours to find Scotland and Amazon river on the globe
15. I hate chilli
16. I can't cycle
17. I think I'm over-dependent
18. I have not finished my Chinese hw yet!
19. I wish I could be different
20. I hate my life sometimes
21. I think I'm weird
22. I think Tianyi and I are gonna be great friends =D
23. I know that the R25s will survive this ordeal
24. I wish I could be a princess
25. I have 2 blogs =D But the other one is for invited ppl only
26. Ice cream makes me happy
27. Chocolate makes me happy
28. I am the moon
29. I bring warmth
30. I am a superwoman =D

Yay I'm done =D

庆祝！

2010-06-15T22:11:00.000+08:00

每个梦都得到祝福
每颗泪都变成珍珠
每盏灯都像许愿的蜡烛
每一天都值得庆祝

当年的你什么都怕怎么会变成了警察
你不是说永远不嫁抢先生了个胖娃娃
我们都在偷偷的长大把简单都变的复杂
当初最简单的梦可别忘啦喔~

没有一点少数尴尬尖叫着彼此的变化
谁发了财谁是苦哈哈这一刻烦恼谁理他
我们还在慢慢的长大迟早会看见白头发
女生天生的单纯不会氧化喔~

看不到成熟的辛苦听不见世界的忙碌
梦穿着无忧无虑的制服在心里长着一颗树

random songs XD

2010-06-07T19:31:00.003+08:00

你那么爱她为什么不把她留下
为什么不说心里话
你深爱她这是每个人都知道啊

你那么爱她为什么不把她留下
是不是你有深爱的两个她
所以你不想再让自己无法自拔

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眼底星空流星开始坠落
每一滴眼泪说着你要好好走
转过身跌入黑洞
看着天长地久变两种漂泊
男人流泪比流血加倍心痛

眼底星空流星跌落手中

我静静握着抬头向上天祈求
愿你先找到温柔
有人包扎伤口也挡住寂寞
谢谢你陪我陪爱听雨吹风

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ 我给你最后的疼爱是手放开

不要一张双人床中间隔着一片海

感情的污点就留给时间慢慢漂白

把爱收进胸前左边口袋

最后的疼爱是手放开

不想用言语拉扯所以选择不责怪

感情就像候车月台有人走有人来

我的心是一个站牌写着等待

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为你付出那种伤心你永远不了解

我又何苦勉强自己爱上你的一切

你又狠狠逼退我的防备

静静关上门来默数我的泪

明知道让你离开他的世界不可能会

我还傻傻等到奇迹出现的那一天

直到那一天你会发现

真正爱你的人独自守着伤悲

End of exams + Show Concert + Delf + Shopping + Semakau

2010-05-30T01:03:00.004+08:00

See how long it's been since I blogged: exams were here and gone, post-exams activities were here and gone, SIMC week was here and gone, and tada- it's the holidays! Seems like i've to blog about many many stuff XD

My exams are still okay la, and I'm still marveled at the fact that I got quite high for my Physics exams. I was thinking of dropping physics next year O.o

Post exam activities... Hmmm. There was a sports enrichment programme and Hui Min and I chose Air Rifle. It was cool okay =D I can be a sniper =D

Oh then yeah Hui Min and I went for Luo Zhi Xiang's 3D concert too! Really nice. Seriously. So nice that I can't describe it now :b And it feels like it's over very quickly, as if it's shorter than a movie.... Haiz, hope he can come and have his concert part II !! Hahah. After I saw him, it suddenly dawned on me that I haven't seen him for such a long time. Heh. The itch is comin back~

Oh and I had Delf exams for French too. The paper part was okay but the oral part... Hur hur hur. I need to brush up on my oral skills =D Yeap, I know I do. I think I can pass the A1 and A2 I took, so let's hope I can pass B1, or even B2 by this year =D

After Delf A1 on Monday, I went out with Ruthanne to Plaza Sing to watch Shrek. Haha super cute! My first shrek movie. I wanna watch the previous ones already =D After Delf A2 on Tuesday, I met with Abigail at City Hall to make Miss Tay's scrapbook =D The next day, Ruthanne and I went to DSO for our project interview. We have no knowledge whatsoever about programming but was given this project. Hmm. Hope we can do it. It sounds interesting actually, better than the other Math projects (: Then we went to Bugis for lunch and we bought a new bag each =D Finally I've got a new bag! It doesn't really look amanda-ish but never mind, it's mine now =D Then the next day, I met up with Abigail at Bugis to finish up the scrapbook. Haha see how I've spent my four days? Ruthanne-Abigail-Ruthanne-Abigail. Haha.

Then from Friday-Saturday, there was the overnight field trip to Semakau. Reached there around late noon, free and easy till dinnertime. Tried to learn how to cycle but failed. And I sprained my ankle while trying to get off the bike. HEH so pro right. Maybe skating still suits me more =D Actually I think I'm born to skate. I feel very free and relaxed while on skates. Like I'm flying~ I'm free~ And nothing can stop me~ I didn't sleep the whole night. Was at the pantry most of the time, and went outside for awhile to lie down on the floor and look up at the nightsky. The moon was very round and bright, as of most Semakau trips cause that's when the tide is the lowest. I was just lying there, staring up at the sky, feeling how enormous the universe is, and how minuscule I am, and for an instant I did not have any worries or stress at all, just being grateful that I am in this world right now, able to admire the nightsky =D Then I went back to the pantry after being bitten by irritating mosquitoes. Hah. Was smsing two ppl through the night. both promised to accompany me through the night- One kept daoing, one fell asleep halfway. Hah. I managed to stay awake by.. uhh... doing chinese practice papers. Haha.

At 4.45am we set off to our survey site. It is not the usual place, but somewhat nearer to the visitors' centre. There was a steep rock-face down and it was very slippery and I was super scared, but it was okay in the end. Jiayi and I paired up. When we were walking to our zone, we passed by an illegally casted net. Ron said he would walk down the net to see if there were any turtles trapped. A while later, he shouted that there were sharks caught. Black tip reef shark. Jiayi and I went over to see- two sharks, one almost adult-size, and one smaller. They were dead by then. Some time later Ron found another shark down the net too, dead. At the end of the survey, we destroyed the net. The fishermen's boat was like 50m away from us while we rolled up the net, hauled it up the rock-face and cut it up right in front of their face. Stupid fishermen. If they wanna fish then jolly well use hooks, not nets. Turtles and sharks can be caught in there and will die! So much so for us, so many volunteers, to put in our effort and time every month to go there to survey the area so that we can get the are protected by nparks.

Two of the three dead sharks. It is often very disheartening to see how many innocent animals lost their lives due to the stupidity or selfishness of mankind.

On a lighter note, my mom bought me a huge apple one day, and guess what, it's so cute that i started taking photos with it. I CAMWHORED WITH AN APPLE! hhahah XD there you go:

This apple is seriously huge. I've never seen such a big apple in my whole life XD Probably twice the size of normal apples XD

I have a dream, that one day, no animals will die due to the cruelty of humans....

I have a dream, that one day, everyone will be as loving to animals as they love their family members...

The three sharks, I want to let you know that at least you did not die in vain. They've brought your bodies back to RMBR for DNA testing, to make you into specimens etc, so that many people can know more about you and learn how to preserve your relatives .

kite kite

2010-05-17T00:15:00.001+08:00

It's been a long time since i posted here. Like, seriously long. Ohmans. When i created my onsugar blog i told myself that i'll still update here regularly. Okayys I should do that. Yupps. So, many many days have passed. And, reading days here and gone, exams here and gone, script checking days here and gone... Yeap. This time, my results really shocked me. The subject that I have the least confidence in, Physics, turned out to be quite well done, like, HELLO I GOT 3RD IN CLASS FOR THERMO! OMG WHAT HAPPENED TO ME! Yeah. I didn't expect it at all. I was thinking whether to drop Physics at the end of this year but now, it's one of my better subjects. Hmm.

Chinese was bad. Like seriously bad. I blame it on Tianran for sleeping in front of me during the exam, although I know it's nothing of his fault. Math was bad too. Okay not as if I didn't expect that but, great, seriously, what happened to me this year? MY MATH!!! And gosh i'm taking PPV next sem. I really really really have to buck up. No more slacking next sem. And no more playing nor procrastinating nor etc etc. I don't care if i'm going to be called a nerd or mugger or what. I need my standards back.

Cell bio was a surprise! 85/100. And considering that i shaded one mcq wrongly, and did one qn carelessly, I was supposed to get 87/100. OHMAN! That's seriously good. I didn't expect myself to get that high. I mean i've known that i'll do better in cell bio than biodiversdity, but i didn't expect it to be THAT high. Even gloria got 78 and she's the highest in 406. I needa reward myself. There's a sticker on the front page that says "You're the best!". Am i? I hope i am. But i have a feeling that the sticker in front of zhiyang's will be "You're the one!". Haha.

Went to marina barrage with year 4 councilors. Bought my own kite and flew it. =D I really love flying kites. Love to see how they fly freely in the sky... There i am. I love my battie =D Haha that shall be it's name =p

Me flying my battie. It's orange! And it's nice =D I love it. I'm gonna fly it many many times with my close friends.

当一阵风吹来　风筝飞上天空
为了你　而祈祷　而祝福　而感动
终于你身影消失在人海尽头
才发现　笑着哭　最痛．．．

很喜欢看着风筝无忧无虑自由自在地在天空翱翔的样子
让我变成一个风筝吧

Sad day

2010-04-16T23:04:00.000+08:00

Today was such a sad day. Cried twice in total =X
Firstly was cause of napfa 2.4km. Okayy I passed, but, my timing was like a whole one min slower than my goal. I don't know what to say. Because of this 2.4km thingy, I have went to bedok stadium to run for like so many evenings. I hoped that for once, I can achieve a better result. But after all that I have done, I still only just passed. I am jealous, yes, I am, of those who can run like it is walking, of those who don't even need to practise and can still get gold for napfa, of those that can excel in the physical aspect also. Sometimes I wonder, if they can, why can't i? I wanted to prove that I can, but it seems to be failing. Why, oh why. If happy little blue birds fly beyond the rainbow, why oh why can't I?
Next was cause of Miss Tay leaving school. Okay I've known it since last week, but I don't know why, when we sang her "Like an Eagle", the feeling is just overwhelming, and the tears just came. Really, it's been four years already. I don't know why. She has never taught me, nor been my mentor, but she is and will forever be my favourite teacher and the teacher I'm closest to. I really don't know, since when I started to like her. Actually, I don't even remember when she first came to choir cause in year one, it was very messy. But unknowingly, I've become close to her, unknowingly, I've grown to like her a lot, and now that she's leaving, I'm really very sad. Choir will never be the same without Miss Tay. Okay I'm tearing again. Shall stop here. Yupps.

Miss Tay, just wanna let you know that...
I will remember you forever.
And I remember that you promised to write for me the same thing you wrote on Pamela's farewell card when I graduate. Yet you're leaving now. Nvm, when I graduate, I'll find you. Yes, seriously, I will.
Miss Tay, all the best in your life after you leave the school.
May there be one day when we all go for your concert =D
Jiayous okayy!!

sick

2010-04-08T21:13:00.000+08:00

Haiz, apparently I am not as strong as I thought I were. AHhahaha. Or sort of. Finally fell sick XD Actually I felt it coming already but I thought my immune system is strong enough to keep me healthy. But ohwells. Hahahha felt sick the whole day today. Drank like super a lot of water and went to toilet many many times. Hahhaha. Actually it's kind of not surprising that I fell sick. In choir, Emily was sick. In class, Anzhi was sick. And Hui Min also a bit. So yeah, surrounded with sick people, it's kind of DUHH that I'll fall sick too. Butttt I realised that I don't have time to fall sick. I just have too many things to do. I shall sleep earlier tonight. Hope I'll be alive and bouncing by tomorrow!

OHHH and I had French test just now. I think, I am, going to do badly. Hahha. For the essay I wrote weird stuff like my best friend and I got into a dispute because she told me who she likes and told me not to tell anyone but the guy found out and came to confront her, so she got angry with me. Something like that. And surprisingly I finished that essay quite fast. Like, in 7min time. Hahahha joke la. Only about this kind of things then I can write fast. HAHAHAHA

French oh french, I really hope that one day, I can be as good at you as my Chinese...
Please help me..
I'm your friend =DD hhaha

我们没有在一起

2010-04-01T23:44:00.005+08:00

最近在看《偷心大圣PS男》，觉得片尾曲很有意义，很好听，有点同感，又好像没有... >.<

刘若英 - 我们没有在一起
你一直说的那个公园已经拆了还记得荡着秋千日子就飞起来
漫漫的下午阳光都在脸上撒野你那傻气我真是想念
那时候小小的你还没学会叹气谁又会想到他们现在喊我女王
你哈哈笑的样子倒是一点没变时间走了谁还在等呢
这杯咖啡忘了加糖真不是我那麽伤感
世界太复杂你说单纯很难我当然都明白

可是呀只有你曾陪我在最初的地方只有你才能了解我要的梦从来不大
我们没有一起至少还像情侣一样我痛的疯的伤的在你面前哭得最惨
我知道你也不能带我回到那个地方你说你现在很好而喜欢回忆很长
我们没有一起至少还像家人一样总是远远关心远远分享

我现在需要的是时间吧
我知道我可以的

我是大笨蛋

2010-03-25T02:26:00.000+08:00

突然觉得自己好笨，真的，很笨很笨。
超级无敌大笨蛋。
想找人倾诉，不知该找谁才好，有人自告奋勇吗
算了，不说了，反正我也不是什么重要的人，就算我现在消失于这个世界里，也没有人会察觉到的。
嗯，对，就让我这个大笨蛋，自己一个继续emo吧

我相信
有朝一日，有人会关心我的
告诉我说我不傻
告诉我说我不笨
告诉我**对**说过的话
我相信。

Si seulement je pouvais lui manquer

2010-03-15T22:08:00.002+08:00

I like this song. Be it the nice voices, or the soothing tune, or the meaningful lyrics, i don't know. I just like it. It's french.

Vox angeli- Si seulement, je pouvais lui manquer

Il suffirait simplement It would simple be enough
Qu'il m'appelle That he would call me
Qu'il m'appelle That he would call me
D'où vient ma vie Where did my life come from
Certainement pas du ciel Certainly not the heaven

Lui raconter mon enfance Telling him about my childhood
Son absence His absence
Tous les jours Everyday
Comment briser le silence How do I break the silence
Qui l'entoure That surrounds him

Aussi vrai que de loin And as true as from afar
Je lui parle I talk to him
J'apprends tout seul I learnt to, by myself
A faire mes armes Build my own weapons
Aussi vrai qu' j'arrête pas Also true as I can't help
D'y penser Thinking about it
Si seulement If only
Je pouvais lui manquer He could miss me

Est ce qu'il va me faire un signe Is he going to send me a sign
Manquer d'amour To lack love
N'est ce pas un crime Isn't a crime
J'ai qu'une prière à lui adresser I only have one prayer to address him
Si seulement If only
Je pouvais lui manquer He could miss me

Je vous dirais simplement I only want to say
Qu'à part ça That apart from that
Tout va bien All is well
A part d'un père Apart from a father
Je ne manque de rien I don't lack anything
Je vis dans un autre monde I live in another world
Je m'accroche tous les jours And I hang on everyday
Je briserai le silence I will break the silence
Qui m'entoure That surrounds me

Aussi vrai que de loin And as true as from afar
Je lui parle I talk to him
J'apprends tout seul I learnt to by myself
A faire mes armes Build my own weapons
Aussi vrai qu' j'arrête pas Also true as I can't help
D'y penser Thinking about it
Si seulement If only
Je pouvais lui manquer He could miss me

Est ce qu'il va me faire un signe Is he going to send me a sign
Manquer d'un père To lack a father
N'est ce pas un crime Isn't a crime
J'ai qu'une prière à lui adresser I only have one prayer to address him
Si seulement If only
Je pouvais lui manquer He could miss me

the pure voices of them
are really mesmerizing
i am nowhere near that
and i'll never be
i don't like my voice
but i like to sing
it's enough, isn't it

confessions to myself

2010-03-07T23:25:00.001+08:00

HAHAHAH after being proved dumbdumb by people, I think I should have a long list of confessions to myself so I won't feel so dumb the next time =D hehe =DD

I, Amanda, in my 16 years of life....

I've never... watched powerpuff girls
I've never... watched spongebob
I've never... watched barney and friends
I've never... watched high-5
I've never... watched winnie the pooh
I've never... known that pooh is a male
I've never... known how to sing the powerpuff girs theme song
I've never... known how to sing the spongebob theme song
I've never... watched titanic
I've never... owned nor played with a barbie
I've never... watched tarzan/lion king/ pocahontas/ any other disney things
I've never... said the f word!! =D
I've never... rode a 2-wheel-bike
I've never... played any MMORPG
I've never... cried in front of people
I've never... cried while I'm on the phone
I've never... smsed > 200/mth UNTIL last yr when i had to spam choir members
I've never... ran away from home
I've never... talked back to a teacher
I've never... owned an FBT until recently, and have never let anyone see me wear it
I've never... owned a skirt since i graduated from pri sch
I've never... watched a ghost show
I've never... been to a guy's toilet!
I've never... been with a guy in a room alone
I've never... handed up an assignment without writing my name!
I've never... told someone something that someone else told me not do tell!!
I've never... ran more than 2.4km XD
I've never... gotten last in class for something (ok wait maybe napfa)
I've never... pon school =D
I've never... pon any lesson =D
I've never... failed any chinese thing!
I've never... fell asleep ON my laptop (next to it, yes)

Okay that's all I can think about for now. If YOU think I have anything that I've never done(which is very likely that anything mentioned will be), leave a tag. I'll add it in =D

Living in a life of I never... I shall add this in
I've never written a list of "I've never"s until today =D

眼泪啊

2010-03-07T20:52:00.001+08:00

近几天心情好差好差，而且，和自己说好16岁了长大了不会再哭了，但是却哭了。

我真的真的不喜欢，真的。

而且连我喜欢听的歌也跟着伤心了起来。挺忧郁的。

囚鸟-彭羚

。。。看着你的笑在别人眼中燃烧我却要不到一个拥抱

我像是一个你可有可无的影子冷冷地看着你说谎的样子

这缭乱的城市容不下我的痴是什么让你这样迷恋这样的放肆

我像是一个你可有可无的影子和寂寞交换着悲伤的心事

对爱无计可施这无味的日子眼泪是唯一的奢侈

一下下-同恩
我只想再哭一下下把记忆彻底地分化
等哭完我就会回家眼泪我会替自己擦。。。

哭过就好了-梁文音
。。。最讨厌被误会了但越解释越觉得难过。。。
哭过就好了伤都会好的
这样相信所以深呼吸着割舍。。。
哭过就好了痛都会走的
记忆有限所以它会淘汰坏的。。。

流浪记-梁文音
我就这样告别山下的家我实在不愿轻易让眼泪流下
我以为我并不差不会害怕
我就这样自己照顾自己长大我不想因为现实把头地下
我以为我并不差能学会虚假
怎样才能够看穿面具里的谎话别让我的真心散得像沙
如果有一天我变得更复杂还能不能唱出歌声里的那幅画

我不是你想像那么勇敢-梁文音
有时候太坚强笑容却填不满眼眶
越是想要隐藏歌声就唱得越响亮。。。
我不是你想象那么勇敢多想让你保护能流泪一场
让我放下武装像个孩子一样单纯地把爱情放在你心上
我不是你想象总是扮演坚强多想让你知道我也要个伴
放下讨厌武装像个孩子一样单纯地把爱情放在你心上

如果我没有遵守对自己的承诺，那我是坏人还是受害者？
靖晴，如果不晴，那她是什么？

2010-02-21T22:45:00.003+08:00

It's been a long time since I posted, yet again. Blame it on the horrendous year 4 workload. For now I have 2 major events to post =D Firstly... VDAY + CNY!

These are the hearts I made for my beloved friends =D Nice right?

i'm super proud of myself ok?

another angle =D

CNY performance- Choir Year 4s. WE ROCK

My vday pressies!!

Thanks: Krystal, Chrissie, Hui Min, Wen Li, Stacy, Semi, Sun Young, Cherie, Vivian, Christine, Ziyi...

Next up, CHINGAY!! (and nope, hui min, it's not "ching ching chiang chiang gayyyyy")

Me, Shenn Linn, Uncle Poh, Samantha

I <3 the background =D

Shenn Linn, Samantha and meeeeee- on the pom pom bed!! super soft and bouncy!

Grace, Shenn Linnn, Samantha and meeeeee @ the sector we're assigned to. background is nice too

me, shenn linn, samantha. during the parade, behind the promenade. i <3 u!!

hao sheng, me, shenn linn, samantha, mui suan

last photo taken before the parade ended

I signed up during the hols cos it seems cool, but realised that it's more than that. Hmm, made many new friends and learned alot of stuff. Never regretted. And now i miss all of them already. Group 1-1 ROCKS okay. How I hope if we volunteer for other events, we'll still be in the same group. But ohwells it's kinda impossible. OK yes, we shall have an outing soon =D

Anyway, thanks... for making my experience a wonderful one,

Kian Hwee: Our dear leaderrrrrrrrr! dounts <3 <3 sorry for arriving late on the second day. oh and THX for calling me twice during my french class -.- oh and i'm not pig

Mui Suan: thanks for coming to our aid when we neeeeed you during our duty!

Hao Sheng: Ahahhaha you're weird! and oops sorry la but you really look blur ma! wad should i say.. thanks for... collecting my ezlink card and not looking at my photo? hahha. oh and i'm not mojo jojo

Shenn Linn: my first friend made! i love you okayy! you're really a nice girl! It's been great knowing you!! and, you really dun like HAM arh?

Samantha: my staircase-mate! got really close after the outing and the laughters. you're a really nice girl to! Glad that I'm in the same group as you! Stay high and fun!

Teng Feng: Uncle Poh!!!!! Just wanna say that, thanks for everything you've done. too many to list. hope that we'll keep in touch k? You are really caring and thoughtful and helpful and many many more... Thanks for giving me support after i witnessed the accident. I was reallllyyy scared.

Ernest: Hiie aunty lucy!! you really have the same feel as one of my friends you know. hahah and thanks for the gift! stay funny too!

Zhi Lin: you're realy always on the phone! haha thanks for the accompany and support you gave me when i felt bad when we arrived late the second day. =D

Ping Cheong: AH BOY! you're younger than me! must respect me! hahah. u are like a bad boy. u noe so much bad stuff. how can you get a gf next time? hahaha super joker!

and many many more that impacted my life some form or another =D Reallly great to be in the same group as yowl! Will not forget the times we spent tgt! OMG why am i like going to cry. craps. We WILL WILL WILL meet up again and keep in touch okay?!!

there were many times, too many times, then i made great friends

those that i had fun with

those that i thought we'll keep in touch for a long time

but as time goes by, they went by too

LJJ, yoreca, wenhuachuan etc...

i really really hope that for 1-1, we'll be friends forever

am i too childish? perhaps. but what's wrong about that?

why oh why must chingay be only 2 days?

2010-02-02T23:37:00.000+08:00

Okay, I'm finally here to update, after yet another long break.

I... AM... SIXTEEN...! What a great realization.

I am no longer a little girl... And I can no long be a little girl. I must bear that in mind. I'm sixteen and grown up and legal and should be more mature.

I have to admit, year 4 in nus high is just pure horror. Piles and piles of homework, so much that I just don't feel like doing anything. Not even the simplest ones or the subjects I love. I just stare at the pile and hope that everything will be finished the next morning, which obviously does not happen. This is just not like me. I used to finish my homework either on the day or the day after. Maybe it's because I end at like, 6pm everyday?! And apparently I cannot understand thermodynamics and some parts of math. What the hell happened to me man? AMANDA TANG, TIME TO WAKE UP AND BUCK UP! Andd due to some carelessness I lost a whole 12marks in my optics assignment 1. Stupid me. Almost cried. Okay wait. I did cry. Never mind, no one saw anyway.

Anyways, time to blog about my sweeeeet sixteeeeeeen!

Cake cutting: binh (turned 18) and me (turned 16)

Chem Prac after that. The pic looks nice. My eyes are visible =D

Steamboat on the 29th. L-R: Me, Krystal, Wen Li, Chris, Hui Min

The 10 of us. L-R:Jun Rui (Barney), Zhi Sheng, Teck Lim, Jorgin, Wei Han, Chris, Hui Min, Me, Krystal, Wen Li

camwhoring with my STAGE cap!!! rocks man~ my new lil baby <3

these are most of the gifts i've received. thanks loads to allll my dearest friends <3 there were some that were unexpected XD thanks alot =D

SEMAKAU TRIP-30th Jan

the corals are so mesmerizing as usual

nice sightings (top left, clockwise: heart cockle, anemone, polka dotted nudibranch whom life i saved, noble volute)

the sunset is just as lovable as before. amanda & abigail =D

It's been months since i last went to semakau and i realised that i still love it: love the view, love the marine life as much as before. Despite the long journey there, despite the mosquito bites, despite the dirty booties etc... The island just gives me a feeling of a carefree life, a break from the fast-paced and pressurizing urban life, and it reminds me of Christmas Island, the sanctuary where my heart yearns to return to. I remember that when I was there, I told myself that one day, I will revisit the place, I will go to the sea cliffs where the brown boobies nest, I will go to the Dale's waterfall and enjoy the springwater beating onto my back, I will go to Margaret's Knoll and open my arms wide to enjoy the breeze... Yes, one day, I will find a place where my soul resides, and will live happily ever after...

I changed my age from 15 to 16 on my blog...

I changed my class from 305 to 405 on my blog...

I updated my wishlist...

But, so what? I am still me, and nothing that I changed changed me.

"If you want to see a change, start the change yourself"...

1月19日了!!!

2010-01-20T00:31:00.000+08:00

天啊，救命啊，时间真的真的过得好快啊！现在已经是1月19日啦!
这几天blogger就是那么讨厌我，不让我把照片放上来，害我那么久没有post，只有plurk而已。实在忍无可忍，就来啦！

要说什么呢？嗯。。。Lucas长大了!几个月没见，那个小不点现在已经长牙、会站了!躺在床上看着他爬来爬去，突然感觉到生命是多么的美妙。从父母抚养我们长大，到我们培育下一代成人，就这样一直轮回着，根本无需计较名利或金钱。。。就如那首歌吧! "I hear babies cry, I watch them grow, they'll learn much more than I'll ever know. And I think to myself, what a wonderful world..."

我非常不喜欢这个学期。我几乎每天都是6点才放学，回到家已经7点多8点了，吃了晚餐，冲好凉后，做功课的时间已所剩无几了(更别说用电脑了）。不过，值得高兴的是在班上我坐在anzhi的旁边!除了在课业上帮忙我之外呢，我还可以和他说一大堆废话，挺有趣的。感觉他有那个junzhan的feel，像一个大哥哥似的。。。可是有时他也被我（和慧敏？）的言行举止给搞得很无奈吧! XD 嘻嘻。是幼稚还是纯真呢？这个话题与junzhan讨论了很久，可是没有结论。

我还有很多东西要写的，可是还要去做功课呢。改天再写吧。
走之前，先说一说，最近在看《下一站，幸福》，真的很好看。剧情好，演员好，歌好。。。都好啦!
男主角是vanness吴建豪。觉得他看起来真的很不一样。记得去年跟随记者去访问他时，他高高黑黑，没什么笑的。在戏里他却很白，而且常笑，就是，整个脸型都不一样就对了啦。记得他问我是否喜欢他，我却因为不是很认识他而结结巴巴，说还不错。唉，台湾的F4之一耶，如果换成我表姐的话她一定早就疯掉了。只可惜呀，他出道当红时我才七岁呀，哪儿懂得欣赏偶像嘛。可是可是现在看了下一站幸福后，我开始喜欢他了耶！如果那个访问能重来就好了！我一定会大声地说：“是，我喜欢你，下一站幸福很好看，你演得很好，需要请教各个工作人员，把整个剧本写成拼音才能背起来，辛苦你了！你真的很好。“可是都已过去了呀。真希望今年也会有实习的机会，能近距离接触明星（还有肢体接触呢！！！我永远记得！！）多风光～
下一站幸福里的小弟弟也太可爱了吧！难怪讨得每个人喜爱。去找一下，他叫“小小彬“，真的从没看过那么可爱的小孩。他的声音也非常好听，去看！去听！绝不后悔！

好啦，就到这里。我尽快来post吧！

我好想好想飞　逃离这个疯狂世界
那么多苦　那么多累　那么多莫名的泪水

hols =D

2010-01-02T15:39:00.000+08:00

Okay, I'm finally here to blog about my December Holidays. What I can say is just that this holidays is not like a holiday for me. I don't feel like I've rested at all. Instead, I feel that I've been busier and more tired than during school days. Hmm.. Ohwell. Never mind, photo time first =D

Wen Hua Chuan Taurus Groupmates (1st Night Dinner)

Ruiyi, me, jean, jiawen, wanxin, qiaolin.

Wingleung, Bennett and Supeng trying to imitate "挤一挤-靠窗"

ok then the various amazing race recees. kelvin trying to make a sandball.

Logs of Night Games 2. Nice right?!!

Yeah my amazing race logs. And darn nic. Handwriting makes me jealous sia. Just like a girl's.

yeah went for cruise with 二姑 as usual

and i managed to draw hearts =D the vessel's lights are nice =D

yeah that's me!

ooh. money money. ahhahah. denominations of 25, 500 and 1000. O.o

ahh i see tongtong and tortor. 面“窗“思过sia

haiz, as usual, my tongtong <3 my ipod

and she's wearing a nice dress. so kelvin, stop saying that tongtong looks ugly! >.<

yeah cleaned my skates when i came back. nice wheels right? but needa change soon.

and that's my coloured tee from internal camp! it's a rainbow! if u can see. nice =D

"goodies" from the cruise

countdown outing! photo taken after we watched alvin and the chipmunks 2

very cute!!! =DD

<3 theodore and eleanor <3

oh then we saw this banner. 天鹰帮帮主-吴尊!! cool eh?

Hahah yupp that's about all for the pics. Didn't really take much. This holiday is just, really very very busy. Went for many many camps. Haiz. And, when I went back to school for council camp, I suddenly felt very weird. That I don't belong there. That those people are not my friends. That, I should be in bg or internal camp. ohwell. I suddenly miss txy a lot. I suddenly don't want school to start. And I don't know why I'm like that. All of a sudden my close friends in school doesnt seem so close anymore, and all those not-so-close friends in txy become my best pals. Maybbee it's time for me to grow up and adapt to different groups of friends =D

OH and another thing is that I feel super dumbdumb!! omg la...
1. yuhan and i were gossiping about this two ppl then i told her that i noticed it 2 weeks ago then she say she knew it months ago. ok. i'm slow... =X
2. i asked nic to join us for movie for countdown outing then he say ok he wanna watch GI Joe then i ask him if there's cinema still showing then he say ya sure have de then i say orh ok i go check. then he say that "LOL like that also believe. so long ago liao" =X blurrrrr!!
3. i asked kelvin if he wanna join us for countdown outing then his phone background very noisy so i ask him where he is then he say at airport the runway there. the noise is aeroplane taking off. then i say "wa so cool! why are u there?" then he say "LOL like that also believe. aeroplane taking off... me standing on runway. u stupid ah..."

FINE I know that I'm blur and dumb and stupid =X and from that night onwards i dunno why but i seem really blur. I don't understand what people say, I don't know what I'm saying, I believe everything that others say. Even those real obvious fake ones. Hmmm. What happened?! Argh. Haha ohwell I can be dumb for awhile more cause there's orientation! =D

I still have stuff to blog about but never mind I shall do it tonight. Time to tidy up my room =D

Once again, the holidays is over.
Once again, a year is over.
What have I done this year? What have I once again procrastinated till the next year?
When, will I, for once, complete all the things that I want to and I am supposed to do?
Amanda ah, you're gonna turn 16 this year already, what in the whole wide world do you wanna do with your life?!

stuff before internal camp

2009-12-21T01:29:00.000+08:00

Another looooong time that I never blog =X

Finished wenhuachuan...

Finished movie outing with friends...

Finished various amazing race recees...

Finished various internal camp meetings...

And tmr is the camp. Wait or issit erm. Yupp, A few hours later.

I'm gonna meet at baoguan 6 hours later. And I haven't packed my bag. And I'm here blogging =D

I shall just blog about some simple stuff first then do a proper post when I'm back from the camp or back from the cruise after the camp. See how la =p

1. Wen Hua Chuan was funnnnnn =p OK maybe not all about the camp itself but more about the making new friends part

2. Writing article on wen hua chuan was torturous...

3. 明明就知道你和他们说的一样糟，我却总为你说好话，我究竟是怎么搞的呢？

4. 突然发现自己有时真的很笨、很迟钝。唉，任命吧，我就是那么不会观察人。=X

5. Thanks a lot to those who helped for amazing race

6. I need to pack my bag and go to sleep soon

7. I shall not write any pink pink scrawny things at the end of my post this time cause I believe that sleep is more important than following my "rituals" XD

--

2009-12-09T00:09:00.002+08:00

我的心．．．碎了．

你简单的一句话

你无意的一句话

你那让我的心碎成一千片、一万片的一句话．

下雨天了怎么办我好想你　不敢打给你我找不到原因．．．

怎样的雨　怎样的夜　怎样的我能让你更想念

雨要多大　天要多黑　才能够有你的体贴．．．

just some random stuff

2009-12-06T20:50:00.001+08:00

Haven't blog for quite a long time again. Hmm. After OBS, went for the A*STAR Science Award Research Exposure Programme. 3 days long. In my group there was only Ivan from NUS High, so I practically stayed with Min Li (pri sch friend) for the whole 3 days. Made a few new friends too. Had fun giggling with them. And had a chance to go for the Body Worlds exhibition at Science Centre too. It was quite disgusting but cool in some sense...

Went Baoguan just now for the internal camp briefing too. When it's my part I was reporting that I do not have enough station masters. Then Kelvin say he can be one, then jun quan spared li ning from wanhui for me instead. So I have enough station masters liao (finallyyyy). Then I ask Kelvin which station he wants, I'll allocate it to him. Then he reply "你随便给我啦。只要有给我跳舞的地方就好了" -.- Er.. Okay lo. Weirdo leh. Staion master still wanna dance.. Haiz..

After the meeting had dance tutorial (again >.<). And (omg) I was paired with Kelvin -.-" Darn la. 好pair不pair, pair 到一个很会跳的. Then at the starting is waltz closed position then darn 尴尬 la. And he so tall some more. Aiyo. But after that is like, hip hop and popping (xiao mo's fault), and kelvin was like "turn"... "turn".... when I was supposed to turn. Er. Ok la, I know that I can't dance hip hop la.. >.< But ohwell at the starting verse there's some actions that was really really very 尴尬. But never mind I survived it =D Hahha. Moral of the story: Never partner a pro dancer when you don't know how to dance =p

When I reached home I tell Hui Min her grouping and about the dance. Then she was like "wah later nicholas jealous ah." Lol la. As if... haha. Actually right, I think that in 通讯员, I'm like, quite a different person. For the camp opening ceremony, jun quan gave me the role of this person that had a lot of lines. And I just agreed. In school I would never volunteer or agree to an acting role... For the camp I am supposed to learn the hip hop dance, and I did. In school I would never dare to dance... In baoguan, people tease about me and nicholas and I just laugh and let it pass. In school I would have gotten irritated and ignore the people that teased me. For wenhuachuan I chose to do the dancing performance and was so enthusiastic about it. In school I would have chosen the singing performance instead. So. Ohwell. I just have a feeling that in tongxunyuan, I am free to be whoever I want. The people there don't know who I am, who I was, what I'm supposed to be like. So... yea... What does that make me? 双面人?! hahah. *shrugs*

Anyway, went shopping with mom for new clothes just now. Bought two blouses and a pair of pants. I tried on a dress, which looks quite nice, but narh I didn't buy it. Hah it's been too long since I wear a skirt/dress. The last time was, er, Chinese New Year? Narh I've never worn a skirt for like ages... Since Primary School XD It's a good thing that NUS High uniform is skorts =D

Yupp I know that I'm weird.
I don't like skirts.
I don't like shorts.
I don't like tank tops.
Yes, I'm weird.
But I just like the way I am =D

假期-又死定了

2009-11-30T23:46:00.001+08:00

EDITED VERSION OF MY DEC SCHEDULE
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
算着算着，忽然发现，这个假期，我又没有时间休息了。。。
原本想大slack特slack的，原本想重看几部偶像剧的，原本想多看一些故事书的，原本想学很多东西的。。。
可是看来，又没有时间了，又死定了。。。
就剩周末（人很多，不能去逛街的日子）还有一个星期而已。而且我有预感我那个星期也会被填满。

December
1st-3rd: A*STAR Science Award Research Exposure Programme
4th: first day out for this hols (with krystal)
5th: Station master briefing + Pulau Semakau Trip
6th-7th: abit of slacking + preparation for 文化船
8th: Amazing Race Recee
9th-12th: 文化船 on board superstar libra (i'm in group taurus! 金牛座 "moooooooo")
13th-20th: only week of slacking (+ preparation for internal camp -> many meetings at baoguan)
21st-24th: tong xun yuan internal camp
25th-27th: cruise on board superstar virgo (as usual)
28th-30th: SC Camp
31st-1st: NEW YEAR CELEBRATION
2nd-3rd: 2 days of slacking to return to schooling mode

Another 2 days gone from my precious holiday. Hahah
Anyway, I missed out this when I posted that day:
Ultimate quotes from OBS:
Zikri "Samuel never helped our group in any way. It's like, he exists just to screw us up..."
Xuehe "My highest point is yesterday after the toilet..."
Angela "My lowest point is when at night very tired then instructors still keep talking..."

加油吧。这里都是我“自讨苦吃“嘀。呵，没有啦。觉得这样挺不错的呀，可以交很多新朋友，也不会在家里发霉。嘻嘻

我可以的！加油喽！
唉，我的假期是注定没有休息的时间了。
今年的三月、六月假期也是。
觉得假期比上学还忙、还累呢！
看吧，都说我是怪胎了。。。

Post-OBS

2009-11-29T21:33:00.003+08:00

WHEE HEEEE~~ I survived OBS~~ OMG yay i'm so happy =D I DID IT!! Happy memories forever.
Watch: Amundsen
Instructors: Wei Ni & Samuel
Tentmates: Angela, Thao, Wen Hui
Kayaking partner: Xuehe
Day 5 I.C. partner: Wen Hui
Singing partner when bored: Wei Han (darn it we didn't have time to sing nishiwoxinneideyishouge)
<3 <3 <3 EVERYONE FOREVER =D
Shall put some of the pics up here...

4th Night Celebration Dinner

So sad that Zikri and Aisyah went home for Haji already... =X

Anyways, after OBS, I slept like, a pig. Seriously. Then today morning went baoguan for internal camp briefing + dance tutorial. OMG la I really really think that Hip Hop and other kinds of street dance is NOT my kind of dance. Yea... Darn it luhh why must it be xiaomo and huijun choreograph de. They so pro in dancing. Haiz =X Will try my best not to make myself a fool then =p

After that went for "amazing race recee" which ended up as discussion @ my house. Hahah.

Anyways, Happy Happy thing~~ I'm going for 文化船!! woohoo~~
Which means I'm going on cruise TWICE this holidays.
Once is wenhuachuan 9-12 dec @ libra
Next is routine annual cruise 25-27 dec @ virgo
OMG luhh ultimate royalty =D

Once again, I have many many plans for this hols
Many many schedules to follow
Many many goals to achieve
But will I, once again, give up halfway?
Or will I, for once, do them...?

103th post

2009-11-21T23:39:00.001+08:00

C'est le 103ieme post!! Hahah ok that was French.

This is the 103th post! HAH. My love for M07103 will never end =DD
ok back to the post. Just to show some random after-exam pictures. =D

Break during Leadership Training

Amanda & Abigail the red-nose reindeers

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See what we were doing during the DeepRaya celebrations? XD

While others are doing work. Haha

Aww I <3 the rose that Gen made =D

And our Class Photo. M009305 <3

Yay we rock =D

Final kolam design that helped us win a food bag =D

想问这个问题很久了，可总憋在心头，说不出来

我，是有理想，还是不切实际？

每每校车经过那些大洋房时，就会不禁羡慕那些人，就会幻想自己有一天会住在那里。

是太注重物质上的享受了吗?还是有奋斗的梦想?

end of exams + obs watch

2009-11-21T00:52:00.000+08:00

Today's the last day of school. Hmmm. This year passed by very quickly. Much quickly than the previous two years. Hmmm. And I don't know why it is like that. I thought that I would not survive this year. I thought that this year would slowly crawl by. But, time not only flew this year. It flew at light speed. And "tada" it's the end of this year. Recently read my diary about last year, I wrote this entry:

11月30日
学期已经完了好几个星期，中二的生涯就此画下句点了。我不再是十四岁的小女生了。我不再是lower secondary的学生了。考试的分数早已分回来。我的cap是 ***，还不错啦。但当然希望明年可以在高一点。中二就这样完了，明年又要分班了，又要与好友分离了。这种感觉好害怕。so near yet so far 的感觉。。。好害怕哦。若明年与班上的人合不来，而看到去年的朋友与新朋友在一起说说笑笑，不亦乐乎，心里将会是什么滋味？应该过去打招呼吗？可是她们现在看起来好开心哦。若遇到这种情况，我应该怎么办？chris明天就飞回国了，祝她一路顺风。这些伤心的东西真不该想。可就是逃不出我脑袋里。不开心的东西不应该想的。最近在看《一公升的眼泪》，突然发现写日记好好噢。我一定会继续写日记，记载我成长中所有的点点滴滴大小事物。有朝一日拿起来翻阅的时候，也许会傻笑，也许会觉得不可思议，但是必定会让我爱不释手的。

And now, it's 21/11/09. Almost one year has passed. The worries that I mentioned may or may not have happened, and yea, I survived this year. And actually I think I like my class quite a lot. So yea, was it 庸人自扰? ohwell.

And yupp got back my result for this semester. Not bad i guess, just that my french is still pulling my grades down. ohwell. And I can't believe that I got A for physics. That's a 5 mc module ok? So yea, it helped a lot. And darn it now it is in 1dp, my results were rounded DOWN. HOW NICE. If I take away french, and I round it do 1 dp, it would be 4.8. Highest I got so far. But no, it included French and was rounded down. So... Haiz...

And I know my OBS watch mates liao. YAY we rock ok? WATCH 7 is like, all the nice people =D
Moi, Thao, Wei Han, Jiayi, Bryan, Charmaine, Wen Hui, Xuehe, Chester, Zikri, Yuan Han, Cheryl, Satya, Aisyah, Angela, Yi Chen. It's gonna be a fun 5 days with yowl!!

And the final session for CHOIR was GREAT. It's been a wonderful and memorable year for me as Choir President. Really enjoyed working with all of you all to make it a successful year. We must JIAYOU for next year =D

Oh and anyone realised that whenever I use English in my blog, it's about happy stuff...
And Chinese foe emo stuff?
I wonder why too...

done done done

2009-11-19T02:44:00.000+08:00

YAY I'm finally done with the stuff needed for Choir Final Session 2009! I'm so proud of myself! hahahah

Tomorrow is sooo gonna be fun =D

Can't wait!

OK I shall go sleep

100th post + cannot sick

2009-11-17T01:15:00.000+08:00

This is my 100th post!! omg i made it to 100!! hahah XD yay i rock =D
And I hope I didn't bored my readers to death. And I know that I at least have 2 readers cos mc and suheti tags =D
Thanks loads to you guys, cos yowl make me feel that there's someone out there who cares about me =D
OHWELL actually I wonder who really goes into my archives and read my 100 posts. hahah.

ok back to my post:
前些日子因为生病不能参与choir的最后一个session，觉得很可惜，很伤心．
可是真是天助我也，这个星期post-exam activities 给我来个cca day，还是4个钟头的！好耶！
可是呢，我现在好像要病倒了．天气转凉，好像要发烧了．
别，别，这次无论如何也不会让自己病倒了．
我不会让自己错失这个机会的
choir 不只是我的cca，它还是我第三个家（家第一，学校第二嘛）．
在这里，交了很多新朋友，在学校有什么不顺心的事去了choir也会变得很开心．
不，我不像别人，恨不得没有cca．不，我不像别人讨厌星期五．
我喜欢cca，喜欢星期五．恨不得每天都有cca．．．
所以说呢，我千万不能让自己生病。

求神拜佛呀。
刚才去了world religions tour
现在我佛教也求，基督教也求，回教也求，印度教也求
各方神圣呀，千万别让我生命好吗？

怪胎怪胎怪怪胎

2009-11-15T17:23:00.004+08:00

哈，最近不知怎么的，喜欢听...一连串关于失恋的歌。哈，我是个怪胎怪胎怪怪胎!
就写写几个吧

南拳妈妈(lara) -下雨天

下雨天了怎么办 我好想你 不敢打给你 我找不到原因

为什么失眠的声音 变得好熟悉 沉默的场景  做你的代替 陪我听雨停
期待让人越来越沉溺 谁和我一样 等不到他的谁
爱上你我总在学会 寂寞的滋味 一个人撑伞  一个人擦泪 一个人好累

怎样的雨  怎样的夜 怎样的我能让你更想念
雨要多大 天要多黑  才能够有你的体贴
其实  没有我你分不清那些 差别  结局还能多明显
别说你会难过 别说你想改变 被爱的人不用道歉

Alin-失恋无罪

你说我对你紧紧跟随你觉得疲惫你一句话就逼我撤退
没想到你说最近选择 -个人睡我忍住眼泪我尊重眼泪

孤独万岁失恋无罪谁保证一觉醒来有人陪
我对于人性早有预备还不算太黑
独身万岁失恋无罪爱不够爱你的人才受罪
用过去悲伤换来自由难道不珍贵
一个人崩溃并不是在犯罪

同恩-不准哭
我把自己反鎖在空蕩蕩的房屋感謝你讓我想個清楚
因為愛你所以我不做你的包袱我不需要誰溫柔安撫
請放心我很快就能恢復找到一個人陪我漫步

不准哭我不要裝可憐無辜擋住你的路擋不住你追逐
不准哭我更應該微笑祝福祝你找到對的幸福

如果我消失不見你在乎不在乎別含含糊糊我很在乎
因為愛你所以我選另外一條路離開是我的最後讓步

cookies

2009-11-12T23:24:00.000+08:00

I'mmmm so luckyyyy I have homemade cooookiesss from Krystallll and Hui Minnnnnn....~~
Hahahha. Double chocolate from Krystal, Peanut butter from Hui Min.
I'm lucky, ain't I? COME ON, you know that you want the cookies too. hahaha =DD
yummy yummy.

vienna boys + kbox + terrapins

2009-11-12T00:04:00.000+08:00

Vienna Boys' Concert @ Esplanade. Choir always look so great, don't we?

KBOX!!! Finallyyyy

Mr Yee, Anzhi, Xuehe

Wei Han, Emily

Emily, Moi (2 princesses)

My 2 new terrapins. Haven't thought of names yet. Wanna help?

Two cuties

Haha aren't they cute? The new one and the old one.

And all of them. hahahha. So cute right?

And oh I bought some cute stuff too. Haha. It reads, from left to right: You are the sweetest heart. You were made for me. Just can't duet without you. I still like the third one most.

Yupp, that's about it. I shall not blog anymore. Shall go watch drama liao. XD And yea, I still haven't forget 大烂人。During O level Chinese he finish so fast and start sleeping some more!! URGH. and he said "小学五年级的水平“ RAHH. HATE HIM FOREVER.

yupp yupp, who wants to help me revenge? pls pls.

hahahah. =DD yupp.

tmr getting back exam scripts. or issit today? 12am liao. hahah.

ok wish me good luck =D

气死人了

2009-11-10T23:15:00.000+08:00

唉，真的是被气死了：

“喜欢他们的文章吗？“
“有些看不懂呀。我虽然没那么笨，但也没那么强“
“哦”
“我的华文比起你的。嗯。这叫。。。望尘莫及。懂吗？哈哈”
“比起我的？你还能看到尘吗？呵呵”

呀呀呀。气死人了啦。真讨厌啦。大烂人就是大烂人，没有取错。。。
还得我连vienna boys 和 kbox outing 都不想写了。
明天才写吧。

其实我何尝不知道自己华文没那么好
但也不要说到这样嘛
就不能鼓励一下人家吗
唉，都说你烂了，还能期待些什么呢？

>.<

2009-11-05T23:20:00.000+08:00

See i knew it. That trigo makes no sense.

Blame Mr Yee for making the Trigo exam so difficult.

Mr Yee, no food for you tmr during 203 bbq~!!! heh

ok i shall study for french.

or maybe not. i have no idea what to study =X

tmr is the day. tmr. tmr. tmr.
liberty will be befallen on me...
and i will sk8 to my shangri-la...

rahh exams

2009-11-04T23:34:00.000+08:00

No, it doesn't make sense. They don't make sense.
It's either they don't make sense, or I don't make sense.
Maybe it's me that can't make some sense out of them.
Or maybe it's just that they really don't make any sense.
Never mind, at least I have some common sense. It should be sufficient for the exam.

And my sixth sense is usually quite accurate too.
Oh yes, hahahah, i have seven senses.
6th sense: "women's intuition", or that deja vu sense, which is quite true. (close friends will know)
7th sense: common sense
With all these senses, I'm sure I can make some sense out of something that doesn't make sense. HAH

Yay, farewell to trigo after tomorrow =D

ohwell i feel like skating.
was cleaning my skates just now. teehee
at least skating makes more sense

靠近一点点

2009-11-01T22:41:00.001+08:00

最近又喜欢听这首歌了。回想起恶作剧之吻的甜蜜剧情。哦，真的是好梦幻哦。。。
之前不知道这是lara唱的。哈哈。就，很可爱的一首歌。

靠近一点点

默默在你的身后守候的我多想看你不经意的笑容
或许我的心你不懂我会努力让你感动
在你眼中有多麼笨拙的我决不放弃追逐你的执著
只要你能再多些回应我一个笑或点头全接受

能不能再靠近一点点大声说出你所有感觉
别再紧紧关在只有自己的世界温暖太阳为你迎接
能不能再靠近一点点能不能再勇敢一点点
就算让我知道我永远只是单恋我也会藏著感谢笑著和你说再见

我要去唱歌啦
我不管，我不管，我要去嘛...讨厌考试啦..

帝女花

2009-10-29T22:05:00.001+08:00

最近重新看了《帝女花》香港无线版本。好感动。我也要和长平公主一样，有一个永远疼我的周世显。
最近也被妈妈叫去看《宫心计》，也很感动。学到了，知道了，做人要存好心，说好话，做好事。

《帝女花》里常说的一首诗，虽然不是很明白它在说什么，可是总有一种莫名的感动。
就让我等一个好心人为愚笨的我讲解一下吧：

双树含樟倚玉楼千年合抱未曾休
合抱连枝倚凤楼人间风雨几时休
但愿连理青葱在不向人间露白头
在生愿做鸳鸯鸟到死如花也并头

小学信件,美好往事

2009-10-29T20:55:00.001+08:00

前些日子帮了一个我素昧平生，而且到现在还不知道叫什么名字的人找了去年的notes，翻着翻着，我看见了小学三年级朋友们“寄“给我的信件。一时想不起那是什么一回事，把信一一看完后，记起来了。小学三年级，班主任 Miss Foo 心血来潮，为我们班设立了一个“信箱”，供大家写信给朋友们。仍记得有人觉得很无聊，有人觉得很奇怪，可现在我也忘了我到底是怎样想的。看着这些信，就当然知道我有写，但是是真心写，还是因为是班长所以以身作则才写，我就真的不知道了。无论如何，我读完这些信，心里暖暖的。信里歪歪斜斜的字，是来自多么天真无邪，多么真心待人的朋友们。他们的思想，是多么的单纯，他们的关怀，是多么的动人。现在想要找回这样真挚的友情，我看应该很难吧。不知道为什么写到这里，眼睛是湿湿的。不行，我千万不能哭。两天前 Yr 6 Farwell assembly 上我是多么地强忍着泪水，才没有像去年一样的，我应该学会长大了。寄信给我的朋友们，因为小五分班失去联络的有不少，而其他的上中学后就各奔东西了。然而，他们当时对我的情感和夸奖，真得令我感到很开心。虽然有的寄完信又立刻闹翻，但是知道他们曾经那么想过我，那么把我当朋友，我就觉得很足够了：

Sarah
- Dear Amanda, I want to note that I won't be going recess with you on Wed & Fri but will be going on Tue and Thur!!
- Dear Amanda, Hi, once again! Thanks for teaching me work! I really appreciate you! (for teaching and helping me buy for me a water bottle! (if i can't find it) Well see you again! I will really try to go recess with you on Friday (day that you wanted). Thanks.
- Dear Amanda, I choose children. I would like to choose children and Dog rather. Can I... never Mind I forgot i'll give you in the next letter
- Dear Amanda, Hi, once again I met you! Sorry, sometimes I don't picnic or go recess with you.
- Dear Amanda, so let's make it on Wed! Sorry that I forget about your Prefect Duty...
- Hi Amanda,I love our picnic! I hope we could have it EVERYDAY! I wonder (for some days) you will ask Felicia to join our picnic! but make sure she does not tell anyone! Ok?

Felicia
- Dear Amanda, Here is a poem for you: There was once a rat, who always go under a mat, one day someone gave it a pat, and it went short and fat! Do you like it? Hah? Hah? Must REPLY or ELSE! Oh! Sorry for threatening you! Bye!
- Dear Amanda, You will receive a letter from the letterbox but don't take that to heart. It was because I was still angry with you. Best Wishes! Sorry!
- Door A man the, Howw arhh yooo? I'm feene. Sent nee moe lettorrs. Turry yup. I ama verrryyg ipatianm. Byy for noww. P.S. like my new signature?
- Amanda, I'm glad you are my friend.
- You are the best! The time I offended you, may I be forgiven?
- Dear Amanda, of course I will write to you often, I like writing to other people even though they don't write to me. And i will not write to boys of course. But, I can't write to you too often. Anyway, this poem is for you: There was once a rat, who always go under a mat, one day someone gave it a pat, and it went short and fat. Another one is: This is dan, the repair man, who could mend a fan, a pan and a van. Do you like it? I like it. Reply to me everytime.
- Dearesst A man the, Dn'tt reply to quickty. Repli tommmoroow ookay? You reeeli lokk Alex an the right? Repli tommmorw. Bext wishes, furniture

Jing Wen
- Thank you for giving me a card. It is very nice. The niceset is the envelope.
-My favourite colour: Yellow. I like to play with my best friends: Alex, You, Xin Yi, Joanne, Chong Yan Yan and Lindsay.
- You are great you have nice handwriting.
-Wish you good luck wherever you are and wherever you be!

Alex
- Wish you a happy birthday! Best friends forever!
- Dear Amanda, I'm glad we are in the same class. I like you because... you are helpful, you are a fair moniter, you are also a smart person. Do well in your studies, and keep up the good work.

Jolynn
- Specially to you! Amanda, how are you? You know who i am? Are you okay @ your new place? Well i gotta go now!
- Dear Amanda, Thank you for being my friend. You are a true friend. Your friendship to me is remembered. AMANDA- Always perfect, Mainly clever, Attentive, Never late, Done home assignments, Always remembered.

Lindsay
- Dear Amanda, you're a very cute, sweet, lovely and smart. Your hair is very neat. (I know my mum said that already!) (I want to stress that you're very cute!)

Anonymous (如果知道他们是谁就好了，真得很想感谢他们）
- I don't have to tell you anything. You are the smartest person I know. Thank you for everything you've helped me with.
- Dear Amanda, you're very clever you know? I really praise you. Thanks for making friends with me!
- You are there to teach people things and I think that is good.
- Amanda, You are my good friend. The one I trust.

我想他们写那些信的时候，绝对没有想到我会如此收藏，也绝对没有想到他们的那些真心话，对我是多么重要．真得很感谢朋友们一路来陪我一起长大．真的真得很谢谢你们．是你们塑造了现在的我．虽然我知道你们当中应该没有一个人会读到这个，可是我还是要说，谢谢你们．让我有那么美好的回忆，让我有那么美好的童年．

小学的朋友们，除了一两个，都已失去联络了
我现在一定要好好把握机会和中学的朋友们相处
六年级毕业后，就各奔东西了．好害怕我会在毕业典礼上哭了出来．
Yr 6 Pamela 对我说：好耶！　终于毕业了！
毕业是好事吗？我可不这样觉得．
我，真的不想长大．

这是一篇很短很短的博文，却包含很多很多的思绪

2009-10-21T00:07:00.001+08:00

算了吧。别再自欺欺人了。你我都知道。你从头到尾都在骑驴找马。是的，我是知道的。只是没有什么表示出来而已。就算有又怎样，你也不会做出什么改变的。这一切的一切的一切，真的很不真实，好像一碰就会碎。远亲不如近邻，这句话能用在这里吗？哦，抱歉，我怎么忘了呢，我连“远亲"都没有。

Ok great. I don't make sense. How nice.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Added in at a later time. And now this post isn't that short anymore.

刚才有人说了那么一句话，令我不自觉地，一直傻笑。
这到底是什么意思呢？心情顿时好了起来。惨了，我有不想的预感哦。

刚才在数学课时和慧敏玩了一场迷你“百万大歌星“，她的记忆力也有够差的。。。
幸好有陈唯和岸至 “提示团“的帮忙。哈哈。

就这样吧。

好累的一天哦

2009-10-18T23:34:00.000+08:00

今早起身时，还觉得头疼疼的。可是谁管啦，我九点五十分就到植物园喽！这是我第七个duty，也是最后第二个。下个星期六是最后一个。一转眼，我已给了6个tour了。时间过得好快哦！做tour guide 的感觉还挺不错的！而且我认为比起动物园和飞禽公园，植物园会比较好玩吧!因为是jacob ballas children's garden，所以guide的大多是超可爱的小朋友。看着他们一张张好奇的脸蛋，在这里东摸摸，西嗅嗅。。。太可爱了！而且我本身也学到很多。。。对，这个公园的主题取得真好-世界上所有的生命都得依靠植物。。。

而且比起动物园和飞禽公园，我们在植物园有多一样经验！十一月时apec meeting，各国领袖都会来新，而他们的妻子会参与一个tour，到全国各地探访，jbcg就是其中一站，而我们也被邀为tour guides。好期待哦，是第一次那么接近大人物耶，我一定要好好被稿，不要出丑。听说一位夫人会有一整队人跟着，场面浩大，好想快点见识一下哦。你看你看，动物园和飞禽公园的同胞们，你们有这样的经验吗？没有呗！嘿嘿！可是我们在trigo考试的时候会有彩排，1pm才会考。唉，当每个人都去玩时，我们还在考试呀。。。

刚才tour完后就赶去报馆讨论通讯员常年露营的事。我在games comm 里，今天分工时我被分为amazing race。唉，惨咯，要策划什么好呢？一定要很好玩地！哈哈。通讯员又活回来咯！考试后咱们再去唱k，再去吃火锅好吗？就这样说定吧！

quote anzhi "你真行，还没养好病就到处乱跑“
唉，我就是这样啊！哈哈！岸至妈妈！为何不喜欢我这样叫你嘛？哈哈！
雪禾如果你有读这篇的话，别告诉他我在这里这样叫他哦！嘻嘻！

就这样吧。我还是早点睡，明天还要赶功课呢！

早点睡早点睡早点睡早点睡
好不习惯哦。。。

生病了

2009-10-17T18:38:00.002+08:00

唉，生病了。其实前天晚上就感觉到喉咙痛痛的，知道自己就要生病了。可是昨天一早醒来时，体温却不过37.6，不能不上学呀。所以就去了喽。在学校感到很不适，可体温偏偏不过37. 6，我也不知如何是好，而且还有chem quiz不能不作呀。最终撑到了choir才回家。睡了一大觉。

我觉得我最近怪怪的，很容易就哭了，是身体不适的原因吗? 昨天在班上，感到很冷很累又要温习chem，不知所措时，哭了一阵。幸亏没人发觉。在离开choir room时，推开那扇门的时候，眼里是含着泪的。我觉得，我好像，有始无终。这是今年最后一次的choir了，我却没能陪同大家一起为choir画上一个完美的句点。是我太没用了，身体太不争气了？

我现在好多了啦，可是还是觉得头重脚轻。呵呵，在考试前/考试期间生病是我的习惯吗？最好不是吧。在这里我要。。。

1 谢谢慧敏午餐时候回来陪我
2 谢谢岸至的关怀
3 谢谢 janice 为我找来 paracetemol ( 还有啊，小姐啊，panadol = 500mg paracetemol )
4 谢谢 joel 的问候
5 谢谢 jun rui 和 t eck lim 的讽刺
6 谢谢 stacy 的 periodic table
7 谢谢charmaine 的 gc
8 谢谢 miss tay 的关怀
9 谢谢 emily 的体贴

10 谢谢天然问我是否的了艾滋病 -.- (还亏我写了一张大的 “T ”给你）

就这样吧。以下是我写给那些有帮忙做教师节礼物的人。好看吧 XD

clockwise from top left- thu, tianran, bernadine, xuehe, nikki, ada, serene, heidi, hafizah.

xuehe leading choir in the exercise warm-up!

quotes of the day:
1. Nikki "Amanda, how do you spell xuehe?" (when xuehe's standing next to me)
2. Emily "Xuehe later you lead the exercise k?" Xuehe "Can we skip it? It's... ... stupid" XD

hahahhahah

有时没东西做时，或者不想做什么东西时，
写一写字，未尝不是一件令人得意的事

我不知道我到底怎么了

2009-10-15T23:28:00.001+08:00

刚刚看了u频道的《爸爸出翳》，在小男孩要和爸爸分开时，不由自主地哭了。我真的不知道我到底怎么了，我真的不知道我为什么那么没有用。已经过了那么久了，还是抑制不了自己的情绪。我真得很不喜欢这样子的我。我真的希望我有朝一日能够一笑带过。算了，伤心的事就不说了。

我和慧凝的泡泡堂终于被刊登了！照片效果还不错嘛，吓得我半死。嘻嘻。又有钱咯！25元。让我来想像我应该买什么吧！

有些人就是那么不识抬举。不知道她们是真的不知道自己原来是这样，还是明知故犯。两位法国来的男士代表的是欧洲顶尖数学、物理和工程系的学校。问她们将来可能进入哪个领域时，她们直接说了“法律”和“语言”。难道她们就不能说“还不知道”吗？说到底我们也是数理学校，这样的回答，会令他们如何看待我们？会对两校之间的合作造成什么影响？难道他们就不能再有礼貌点吗？把气氛搞得那么僵，叫他们如何是好?真不知道这些人是怎么想的。

唉，就这样吧。嗯，就这样。

做人要懂得察言观色。。。
也要懂得在适当的时候说适当的话。。。
这，难道很难做到吗？

todayy

2009-10-11T23:08:00.000+08:00

今天是孔子圣诞之日，一早就被妈妈拉去庙里。在那个庆祝的地方，看到学校的daniel tan。可我想他应该没有看到我吧。拿了很多吃的。有棉花糖、爆米花、雪糕、薯条等等。在排队的时候觉得很害羞，因为我周围都是矮矮的小孩子，只有我这个大孩子在他们中央。嘻嘻。这也是宝宝第一次拜孔子，希望他将来有书缘吧！拜完后去jacob ballas children's garden 做 tour，过后又被妈妈拉到另外一间庙拜拜。。。然后去了 parkway 逛街!! 超开心！回家后继续和宝宝玩，没做到任何功课。惨了啦，宝宝来，我怎能专心做功课嘛？哦对，宝宝好像开始长牙齿了！哈哈！可是我觉得没有牙齿比较可爱嘛。。。XD

希望李恩玮小宝宝能永远停留在这个年龄
这个惹人疼爱，天真无邪的年龄
这个无忧无虑，天天开心的年龄
对，就如SHE的歌，我不想我不想不相长大
因为童年是最开心的。。。
我的童年，我的遗失了的童年，我的不完整的童年。。。
好希望我能回到那个时候，把我生命里的缝隙补回
好希望我能有一个完整无缺，值得回味的童年。

lalalala

2009-10-11T01:44:00.008+08:00

~~这篇上面几段是下午写的，其余晚上继续，所以时间有点怪。这个时候宝宝已经睡了~~

就让我来说一说我多姿多彩的生活吧！会有人觉得我的心情特别好吗？那是因为有一个开心果正坐在我腿上嘛---我的小外甥！！
有很多很多东西想说，但不知如何整理成一篇博文，所以决定一样一样说。

1. 刚从报馆回来。和慧凝一起拍了这个星期泡泡堂的堂主照片。羞死了。现在唯有求神拜佛这个星期的逗号没有被送到学校里。否则我呀。。。颜面何存？真是无脸见人呀。XD

2. 上个星期四，看piano duo recital 之前和慧敏和charlene 去了vivo 一趟。买了 “贱男人"的手提袋给hurberg为生日礼物，也买了一只小乌龟玩具给自己。取名为 “tortor" 读音为 “torktork" 因为法文乌龟是 “tortue" 读音是“torktue". 慧敏说听起来像物理的“torque"，我想了想，真的有点像。我们也买了一些糖果以防万一，避免在演奏会里睡着。而且我们三个虽然去得最远，但是是最早到的呢。等了好久好久才看到别人到。在会场里，慧敏坐我左边，berton 坐我右边，天然在我后面。第一个部分时，慧敏和berton都睡着了，我在中间好怪。鼓掌时天然问我刚才慧敏是不是在睡觉，我说是。原来后排在笑的就是她。。。intermission 时我拿乌龟吓天然，就跟上次在我家我拿我的真的活的乌龟吓他一样。他真的又被吓到。哈哈！！小乌龟真的很可爱耶。天然还拿了我的乌龟，也吃了我们的糖果。还不要还呢。大烂人就是大烂人。没取错名。berton也偷偷藏了我的小乌龟，令我以为不见了，急得要死。

3. 我星期五去到学校，才发现钱包是空的。买小乌龟花了我仅剩的钱。午餐时还要和朋友借钱呢。幸亏cca时和团员们收了些钱。现在总算有些钱啦！合唱团后就去bugis上＊＊课，觉得我越来越喜欢了。课后和她们讨论是否继续学。我要，我要！突然觉得我有很多很多东西要学，虽然我已经在做很多东西了。。。学多一点东西是好事呀！将来才来后悔就来不及喽！

4. 这一部分很早以前就想好了，但不能决定是否要写。就，写吧。没什么好憋在心里的。
其实，我有时觉得，我们两个真的有很多相似的地方。多得数不清。我也有曾以为我们可能会成为形影不离，志同道合的死搭档，但是很明显，事实不是这样的。可能真的是　“like poles repel“吧，我不曾和你很亲过，只能算是普通朋友吧。可是，我真的觉得我们俩很相像，甚至像到有什么你比我好一点，我就有点羡慕你，嫉妒你。可是我也越来越觉得我不要像你。
你有着花花绿绿的头衔，但却连最基本的服人都做不到。只有老师喜欢你，又有什么用？同学们都不服你，对你议论纷纷。比起你，我觉得我只要一个小小的职位，或者根本都不用，只要和大家乐在其中就够了。我不否认，你对待朋友们很好，是一个一百分的好朋友，但是，抱歉，我绝不认为你是一个好的领导者。看来我们俩是道不同，不相为某，注定做不了很亲的朋友的。阅读此篇的人，可批评我的想法，但请不要针对那个人来说我不应该这样想她。因为，如果你知道我在说谁，就是你也有同感。

5. 这几天外婆和表姐和表姐夫和小外甥来我家住，我觉得瞬间我和家人相处的时间多了。平时我都选择留在家里让妈妈打包给我吃，但是他们来，我们大家都一起出去吃。平时我周末很晚才起身，他们来，我一早就起身和宝宝玩耍。平时我都喜欢自个儿在房里用电脑，做功课，但他们来，我就让他们到我房里一起玩，或我去客厅大家在一块儿。我记得我去年心情低落时曾想到一句我自己认为很满意，很能代表我心情的话：我只是习惯孤独的感觉，绝非喜欢孤单的生活。事实是如此吗？若是的话，那我希望他们能来多一点，希望有多一点人关心我。。。

6. 突然很想念通讯员的活动。好像很久很久没有看到他们了。想起去年的文化营，抢麦比赛，常年露营，一个接一个的凌鹰outing，　二十多个人占了四间房每一间有不同的主题（流行曲，老歌，英文歌，还有一个忘记了）大家走来走去的ktv outing，　十多个人占了一整排桌子的火锅晚餐。。。好希望能再一次体验这些哦。。。希望考试快点过，能和大家一起出去玩。人活在这个世界上呀，除了读书，也要享受人生的呀！而且呀，除了学校的朋友，也要在别的地方有生死之交的嘛！我很幸运，有通讯员的朋友们，也有罗志祥粉丝俱乐部认识的人。啊，讲到这里，我好像很久没有看到他了呀！上一次是二月的e乐大赏。罗志祥啊，你在做什么呀？我很久没有看娱乐百分百了耶。你在筹备新专辑了吗？快点来新加坡吧。好想念七早八早排队去你的签唱会的感觉，好想念爬在栏杆上看你现场表演的感觉，好想念和慧敏一起疯狂尖叫的感觉，那个热血沸腾的感觉，那阵说不出的兴奋和快感。。。唉，快点来吧。

7. 表姐买了iphone！羡慕死人了。雪禾还说 "that's the purpose to purchase apple"，气死人了。他呀，怎么那么坏呢？他不是“大好人“呀，怎么快跟天然一样做“大烂人“了呢？

8. 我也不知道要说什么了。就让我已我要做的事来结束这篇怪怪的博文吧

－我要去 ktv !! kbox 的四个小时也好，topone　的七个小时也好。我要去就对了啦。有没有人要一起去呢？
－我要吃火锅！！！！！！！！上一次吃是年头耶，时间过的好快哦
－我要学＊＊＊和　＊＊！！　由于害羞，所以就不写出来啦。

明早又要去 jacob ballas children's garden 做tour 啦！挺好玩的！比起动物园和飞禽公园，这个好多了。而且因为apec，各国领袖们的妻子会到那儿参观，我们被邀为tour guides。这个体验应该挺好的，好期待。若我们其中有被选为michelle obama　（如果她有来）的 tour guide那有多好。毕生难忘的经验。好啦，不说了。

写了那么多东西，我也忘记这篇的主题了。
不切题，是我的习惯吗？
还是我没有拟题？好像是这样的。
是我不喜欢被约束的感觉吗？
不，不，我也并非喜欢没有东西跟从，自个儿自生自灭的感觉。。。
话说我这几天真的亲眼看到为人父母是一个多么重大的责任。
宝宝随时都会哭，而你就要随时都有办法令他安静。
而且对宝宝要寸步不离，否则一转眼就有意外发生。
我呀，以后呀，一定要找到一个很爱我很疼我，会帮忙我照顾孩子的男生才结婚。
否则我是绝对不会嫁给他的！

sparklers, protein shake, baby stay, wooden figures.

2009-10-05T01:45:00.002+08:00

Another looong time since I last posted. Hmm. I shall talk about some fun stuff then XD

First up, sparkling sparklers fun with choir members after CO Concert XD Oh man some didnt join in the fun =X

Especially those living in the hostel and didnt just walk to the field and join us -.-

And Mr RubbishMan Xuehe came the latest but cleaned up the most!!

End of it. Next up, "Baberry Strawnana" Protein shake made by Genevieve, Hui Min, Vivian and I for our sports nutri module! Ours looked and tasted the best ok?

AND AND AND next up, the reason why I didnt do any homework nor studied for bio exam this weekend...

My baby nephew Lucas came to my house for a stay! Hey he's learning how to walk ok =p

That smile can make any bad mood go bursting with happiness =p it works.

And we brought him for his first swim in his life!! Doesnt he loook soooo cute? XD He loves to kick the water

AND thats the good part of a waterproooof camera XD Cousin Agnes and me =p

Oh man he's tooo cute XD and gosh what's with my hair? Just finished bathing, looks so frizzy =X

and yes, cute rite? XD

thats it thats it. and lastly....................... the wooooden stuff =p

clockwise from top left:

Wooden cottage, guitar i made for anzhi (spent 3 hrs tying the strings : 3 metal 3 nylon. and still not satisfied with my work), grand piano i made for tianran (omggg so sorry i can't find the missing piece), baby bedroom set, chair and cupboard set, bathroom set. i still have many more la but lazy to take pic sia.

SEEE i fail. guitar-string not nice. piano-one piece misssing. AHHH i fail. shall just go die =p

hahahha narh la jokinngg. still have to make a toilet bowl for chenwei and jiaqin!!

teehee XD if i make for them, then the only one without will be xuehe. wonders if he wants one. and hopes he doesnt touch anzhi's guitar's strings cos they're really loose and not-to-be-touched-too-many-times!

i told anzhi that if the guitar spoils, i'll kill him. so maybe if xuehe wants anzhi to die, he can purposely go spoil the guitar. teehee XD *evil smiles*

ohwell. perhaps i should go sleeeeeeeeeeep. one weekend of fun with baby never rest =X

Shall do all my homework tomorrow then =p buhbyye.

actually i do wonder...

whoever reads by blog...

why do you?

ahahha issit nice?

ohwell i dunno. XD but i like to read others' blog though.

can know lots more about the person XD

but my blog. haha dunno la. =p

ohwell, this last part of the blog is supposed to be used to say important or philosophical stuff.

but look what i am doing now.

ok nvm. next time then.

buhbyyye. XD

emo emo emo qn

2009-09-30T20:55:00.001+08:00

I wanted to blog about many many stuff. But apparently I didn't...

最近一直在想, 以下哪一个情况比较不好...
- 被冤枉一些你没有做的事
- 好心做了一些事却无辜被骂

想想看吧!
就这样喽!

crap my posts are getting weirder and weirder...!!!
and i'm getting weirder toooo
gosh that's not good =X

why i stopped violin

2009-09-20T23:18:00.005+08:00

最近回想了很多关于我小的时候学小提琴的事。因为当我告诉朋友们我以前学过小提琴，7岁考到grade 4 时，她们都很惊讶，说如果我继续的话现在就会很厉害了，问我为什么没继续。已经很久很久没有想过小提琴的事了，被朋友那么说一说，倒觉得她们说的有道理。7岁考到grade 4 真的很不容易。我从来没想过，也不知道自己原来以前小提琴拉的那么好。我以前到底为什么没有继续学下去呢？我想了很久很久。

其实，我对于学过小提琴的事，已经没有什么印象了。在脑海的深处模模糊糊好像有几个画面。。。是踏进那铺上蓝色地毯的音乐学院，是在小提琴老师那木板地上的房间里，是走进一间有架钢琴和一个椅子，我考试的白色房间，是小提琴老师跟我说要拉得好一首歌就要完全沉浸在那首歌里，一开始拉就有如进入歌曲里那清幽的草坡，直到歌曲拉完才回过神来的情景。。。所以说我没有继续学的原因，我想了很久还是想不出来。

可是今天我突然记起来了。我终于知道我为什么没有继续学小提琴了。若我没记错的话，应该是这样的。

我4岁开始学小提琴，不久后考到grade 1，然后就听妈妈说她的朋友听说后，也给自己8岁的女儿学小提琴。我还记得我听到后，很恨那位阿姨。为什么我学她就要她女儿学？为什么要学我?

我好像6岁考grade 3 的，考了pass，而那个阿姨的女儿也靠grade 3, 考了merit。妈妈听说后告诉我那个女生比我迟学却考得比我好，说我不够用功。可是我是真的很用心地练习阿。可能就从那时开始，我对小提琴再也没有以前那股热忱，考完grade 4 后就不继续了，因为我觉得我总被那个女的超越。可能就从那时开始，在我心中种了不想输的幼苗。所以，我到现在，还是不喜欢、不习惯输的感觉。虽然知道一个人不可能没有输，可是每当我输时，心里总感到特别特别难受，觉得做什么都没有意义，没有理由再做下去了。以前总想不通为什么我会这样想，因为同学们都不会这样，现在我知道了。可能是因为我输的时候会想起以前那件事吧，所以会感到说不出的委屈和无奈。

好多好多年过了。现在我已15岁了。但我最近发现我其实还真的真的很爱小提琴。我有点后悔我当初没有继续学了。若有的话，我大胆地说，我现在一定会考到diploma的了。突然有股冲动，想再次拿起小提琴，再次上小提琴课，完成我那11年前第一次拿到小提琴时许下的愿望- 我要成为人人爱听得小提琴家！

我真的真的很想再学小提琴。真的。。。

我应该吗？这次我会为自己而学，自己儿拉。

不会再与人比较。只会与自己竞争。

我可以做到吗？

2009-09-14T22:49:00.000+08:00

Haha it's been a loooong time since I posted. Ok not that long I guess. This is one of the rare posts of me saying happy stuff =p I realised that as I grow up, my posts are getting more and more emo-ish.
Amanda started to blog in P6 to blog about skating lessons.
Amanda used to blog only about happy stuff.
Amanda used to be only have happy thoughts.
Amanda now blogs about emo stuff =X

Ok it's time to share with all of you some happy stuff: my sept hols!
This year's March Holiday: Astro, French make-up, TXY yingxin...(NO REST!)
This year's June Holiday: TXY peixun, NEA camp, PHY camp, YORECAmp...(STILL NO REST!)
This year's Sept Holiday: I smart I never plan alot of stuff... (REST FINALLY!)

OK now let's seeeee... Before sept hols... 31/08/09, teachers' day pressies!

Files for Miss Tay and Miss Mariko

Miss Tay's Cushion! (Kudos to Tianran)

Miss Mariko's Cushion! (Kudos Kudos to Tianran & Xuehe)

Thank you cum Tchrs' Day card for Mrs Lim (Kudos Kudos Kudos to Tianran)

That's the inside. Hahah good, never spell anything wrongly. hahaha

Cap for Jean Marc (Kudos to Chris, and i still think it's too cute for him)

French poem for Jean Marc (Kudos to Jayashri)

Card for Jean Marc, with all our wishes (Kudos to Wen Hui)

Yupp that's the end of it. Now now, Sept hols!!
First up....... Sunday 06/08/09, Choir Outing!!
Although not many people turned up, was quite fun =p
And I think the year 3s know one another much more now. I guess. Maybe not the guys. =p

Yay Year 3 girls. And yes, we know one another more now.

it's abit ego but I really love this pic. MAYBE i shall retake violin lessons. gosh shldnt have stopped last time. 7yrs old grade 4 leh. crap should have continued. now diploma liao lo.

me, abigail, thao, ruthanne, tianran, xuehe

and yupp we rock. love all of you!! (as in friend kind of love)

On the way to ECP. Haiz the two guys ah... Sit so far sia. emo ah

thao, nikki, me, ruthanne, abigail
ok i think girls like to be in groups more than guys do....

sorry this abit ego tooo but it's the first pic of me wearing my skates and i think that the lighting and ambience is reallly very niceeeee.

Overaged kids at the playground =p

tianran, xuehe, thu, ruthanne, me, thao, binh, abigail, nikki

all on wheels, readdy to goooo =p

emo kids VS sweet couple @ bedok jetty

Hahah and that's me feeding everyone ruffles. I feel like a mama bird going back to the nest and feeding little birdies =p

and that's us @ bedok jettyy. we rock, no?

and yes, us again... we look so great we just cant have enough pics =p

and then it's bowling. tianran and xuehe left though. and ivy didnt play.

and can you belive it? I was top scorer!! haha. 96 =X

and that's us outside the bowling center

and here are the three "JANUARY-TWENTY-EIGHT"s.
binh: 28/01/92..... me: 28/01/94..... ivy: 28/01/95

ruthanne is ace spades, abi is 3 diamonds, i am queen hearts <3

that's the end of the choir trip.
Next, Monday 07/09/09, Chinatown Herritage Tour
Krystal wanna go so I asked her to sign me up tooooo =p
Although during pri sch i've been to such tour like many many times. and i still rmb them.

Temple of the Heavenly Peace

That's us =p

and that's her iphone. crap i want an iphone too =X

That's about it for the trip. Didnt take much photos cos I was paying attention.
I'm serious O.O
the next day, Tuesday 08/09/09... Bugis shopping with wenli, Dinnerrr

we went yoshinoya for lunch. and both of us ordered the same thing. and as usual wenli finished much slower than me =p she eats wayy to slowly

we went iluma =p and saw this looong escalator that spans over 4 storeys

taking photos on the looong escalator

i actually quite like the curvy and futuristic feel of iluma. Just that it's abit too empty.

and i'm currently in love with this shop. E111. Many cute bags.

Had Zhong Yuan Jie Dinner at night =p

They take like 20min to serve a dish -.-

and i received my payment for the attachment reflection article thingy. 20bucks =p

there goes one day of shopping. and both wenli and i did not bring enough money.
so the next morning, Wednesday 09/09/09... Shopping + Class BBQ

this is cute, no? hahah i love it. and it's small. it's time i get a small bag.=p

and of cos domo kun! i'm loving domo kun. so cute!!
domo kun handbag

and domo kun pouch! cute right?

i am currently so in love with this.

it's like, whenever i feel sad or mad, once i look at it, i can't help but smile =p

may seem weird to other ppl but it really works miracles for me =p

it's time i find something that make me smile right?

after that, went to mrs yeo's condo for class bbq!

tada 305 rocks

mrs yeo's baby girl decided to give minh the bear!! oh no...

and barn seems like the captain of the ship. it's as if he's not tall enough

BBQ!!

bbq, fan fan fan

when people are fanning, minh is sleeping, some are swimming, chenwei is listening to music and dancing -.-
and mr and mrs yeo's happy family =p they look sweet. that's the kind of family life that everyone hopes to have right? yea, me too. i really do.

they're trying to bully the baby.

<3 mr and mrs yeo <3
305's papa and mama

and that's the end of wed.
then... thursday, 10/09/09... Jurong Island + lucas come my house

those are the tags we had to put on before entering jurong island

and here's us wearing a*star labcoats and safety goggles for the lab tour

me, abigail, valarie, joelle

and here's baby lucas! 6 months old liao. getting cuter and cuter =p

and yes he can push his head up now =p can sit soon =p

in this position, if not held properly, will topple and fall to the side. utterly cute.

and he can play soccer!! =p hahah thisis not child abuse. it's beachball and is very soft.

and played mahjong with agnes of couse. hahaha. and i lost =X again. as usual. this is bad.

And the rest of my hols are spent playing with lucas. and then chionging homework on sunday.
hahah i love this sept hols! and i hope dec can come soon so i can play with lucas more.
should be able to crawl or walk by then. much cuter =p
and of course i hope that we can have another choir outing or class outing.
just going to someone's house and watch horror films through the night is fun and memorable enough. hope so. hope so.
and it's 1:38am liao. gosh i took so long to finish this post. all the uploading of photos lorhh. hahah. and googlechrome is weird. and safari is weird too. using firefox now. hahah.
anyways. that's about it. i may post again sometime soon.
But i have to do lotsa stuff. ok let's list:
1. DV presentation!!!
2. Music Majors Rectials Article
3. Finish up LY huixun chang tan tian
4. Go health checkup for OBS
and others. so i shall stop here. whoever you are, thanks for having the patience to read up to here. my life aint that interesting you see, so thank you =p

and goooooodnight =p

through the outings, i realised that i have many more friends around me actually
much more than i thought so
i realised that, i should, start realising them
ok does this make sense? it does right?
yupp i should start looking around me and cherish all the friends i have =p

choir outing part 1

2009-09-06T20:57:00.004+08:00

Had choir outing just now...

Although not many people turned up...

It was enjoyable.

The drizzle soooo did not dampen our spirits...

I shall blog with pictures another time...

Had funnn with the year 3s at home.

But I think I sort of left the guys out. Sorry boys( or issit men?), I don't know what to do with you all...!!

Took many pictures =D

Then went for lunch...

Then went to ecp...

Then cycled (ohwell i skated duhh)
Then bowling (omg luhh i was the top bowler. first time in my life!! 98 in total =X )

Then dinnnner =p

That's about it.

Shall blog with pictures another time. =D

teacher's day pressie

2009-08-30T16:08:00.021+08:00

愕然发现自己很久没有blog了。我到底要怎样呢？又写日记又写blog。是自愿把自己逼疯吗？

我觉得这个学期我真的有些疯了。学期刚开始时，大胆地选了很多科目。朋友问起时我回答说“‘I'll just tell myself that they are core modules so I won't feel that I'm so stupid that I took so many things" 可是我真的能够这样说服自己吗？算了，都上了半个学期了。我还没疯，还没死，就是还受得了。这个学期就拼了吧。年轻人，受得了那么一点挑战的。

除此之外，要写得稿也开始堆积起来了。和慧凝做的泡泡堂，和慧敏做的报道，还有凌鹰会讯的畅谈天。。。我可以的，我一定可以把它们全都做的最好！相信我吧！（差点加了“新加坡”）

哦对，合唱团！！国庆节的表演成功！谢谢大家那么用心学舞步，谢谢来自文莱、越南、泰国、韩国和中国的团员，谢谢你们愿意唱新加坡的爱国歌曲，谢谢你们那宽敞的胸襟，谢谢你们愿意花时间背歌词，真的很感谢。尤其是雪禾，应该花了很多时间和精力背歌词吧？但却病倒了不能参与表演，太委屈了啦。要照顾好身子哦，下次才不会再枉费心机嘛。不过现在有机会和学姐pamela合唱哦。ooh~~ooh~~哈哈！加油啦！

还有的是教师节的礼物！真的真的真的很感谢...

1. 天然！！！

2. 雪禾

3. thu

4. Yr 4 bunch of girls...

心里有说不出的感动和感谢。原本我还怕没有人会帮我，而且事情会搞砸的，但是看来哪儿会嘛。真的，很谢谢你们。这一年来我一直都觉得身为团长，我没为合唱团做过些什么，这次总是有所付出啦。谢谢你们的支持。没齿难忘。还有特别感谢天然。对不起我好像总烦着你做这个催着你做那个。真的很感谢你肯帮我。感谢，感激，感动，感恩。还有，我说话哪儿会很嗲嘛。没听过我骂人的时候吗？要见识见识吗？嘿嘿！而且你未免太像大少爷了吧。要全部的女孩子迁就你在图书馆做。真是的。若不是你会画的话，你就知道死！不不，下次如果还这样的话，你就死定了！

说完合唱团的事，该说说其他的了吧。一转眼又七月了。让我想到一首歌：

Because of You

I will not make the same mistakes that you did

I will not let myself cause my heart so much misery

I will not break the way you did

You fell so hard , I've learned the hard way, to never let it get that far

Because of you I never stray too far from the sidewalk

Because of you I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt

Because of you I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me

Because of you I am afraid

I lose my way and it's not too long before you point it out

I cannot cry because I know that's weakness in your eyes

I'm forced to fake, a smile, a laugh every day of my life

My heart can't possibly break when it wasn't even whole to start with

I watched you die I heard you cry every night in your sleep

I was so young you should have known better than to lean on me

You never thought of anyone else you just saw your pain

And now I cry in the middle of the night for the same damn thing

Because of you I never stray too far from the sidewalk

Because of you I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt

Because of you I tried my hardest just to forget everything

Because of you I don't know how to let anyone else in

Because of you I'm ashamed of my life because it's empty

Because of you I am afraid

Because of you Because of you

已快八年了。我生命中没你的日子从今年开始，已多过一半了。我一直都以为我早已放下了，但是有时

很烦时，很难过时，很忧郁时，很委屈时，又会不禁地想起你。希望你没走，希望你还在，希望我可以

像其他的孩子一样，希望我也可以像同学一样有自信地说出“我成长于一个小康之家“，希望我也跟别人

一样有人疼，希望我也跟别人一样有一个靠山。。已不止一次，和朋友们的争吵，她们的家长都来为她

们出头。可我总是孤零零一个，在这个生命的战场里自生自灭。为什么没有人来帮我？我也希望能在你

的荫蔽下长大，我也希望有人会为我出头，我也希望在外头受了委屈可以回家窝在你心头大哭一场，我

也希望生病时有人关切地问候我，无微不至地照顾我。你应该一辈子照顾我的，你应该一辈子保护我的

，可你，居然早就走了。还记得以前你很疼我的，还记得以前小一放学是你来接我回家的，还记得途中

你总会买雪糕给我的。你走后从此放学就是我自己走回家的了，你走后放学我再也没有雪糕吃了。现在

我看起来跟别人没什么不同，可是，我是真的真的觉得，很没有安全感，觉得没有人疼我。我又哭了啦

。都是你。已经很久没哭过了。已经跟自己说好不要轻易流泪的。可是眼泪还是不由自主地流出来了嘛

。上华文课读“送汤“那一篇时，我真的快哭了。非常感动。眼泪在眼睛里打转，看东西模模糊糊的，读

不下去。幸好没有真的哭了出来。全班同学和卓老师都没有那么感动，唯有我一个。天然也说那篇课文

不置于流泪，可我不知道啦，真的感触很多。究竟我什么时候才能长大，才能忘记你？

这篇blog的题目是“教师节礼物“的。原本只是想感谢合唱团的团员们。不知为何会写到这里。昨天读了

某个人的blog，感触也很深。因为认识了XX那么久，根本不知道XX心里是怎样想的。在学校里总是很

像没什么事的，但心里却又很多挣扎。想想看，XX跟我也挺相似的。

结束此篇的五个字：我要溜滑轮。

我要乘着我的烽火轮，飞到九霄云外去，飞到没有离别，没有哀愁，没有伤心的地方去。。。

你不要来阻我，不要来劝我。

要就跟我一起走

一起走。

yay can upload photos

2009-08-09T23:53:00.021+08:00

Oh and YAY finally i can upload photos on blogger. HMMM. Let me bloggggg!!

firstly, the super outdated thailand photos. i realised that i havent posted any yet. so well that was me and agnes, my cousin at the royal palace at bangkok.

and why are the toy dogs so realistic and cute in thailand?

floating market was definitely a once in a lifetime experience

and that's me making the coconut thingy. and i just spotted a cute little soft toy in the shape of a. ahem. a. sperm.

oh and this is just one of the breakfasts that i brought to school. am very proud of the nice arrangement. would be cool if i can bring that to sch as breakfast every morning.

oh yeap and of course choir tee! cheers for tianran. but sorry cant help you. shall do a better job next time right? the vest? heee =p

and montly trips to pulau semakau always result in nice photos! (25.07.09) clockwise from top left: nice sunrise, nice clouds, patterns, patterns, cute little pink thing standing tall in the vast ocean

and whoever that does not think that this little hairy crab holding onto my chopstick is cute must be mad. hahah. isnt it sooo cute? like. holding onto my chopstick! spend a long time to get it back.

other interesting finds. clockwise from top left: anemone, orange fan worm, sea star, octopus

me and abigial at the tipppp of the intertidal area. one more step and plonk we go into the seaaaa.

and the return walk through te mangrove isnt always that irritating. somehow that day i feel that it feels really serene and nice and i would like to live there. minus away the mosquitoes. this picture is like. "where does this path lead you to? if you never try, you'll never know." nice right? =p

ok end of semakau. just feeeling bored so started taking pictures with tongtong, my bear, of us living in the north pole.

and during the no-sch wednesday, went kbox with weihan and emily and mr yeeeee!!

aww dont we loook so sweeet tgt??

HAH compart. kbox on 14/2/09 and kbox on 29/7/09

same people, same sitting arrangement, same white thingy weihan's wearing, same jacket i'm wearing. ohwell and same happy smiles we all have. singing is such a fun thing to do. yay. love it. shall go soooon!!

ok that's the end of spamming of photos. i just felt too happy that blogger can finally upload photos. yay. these few days i feel like i spent a few months already. on thursday, lesson ends at 2, physics olympiad 2-4, national day concert rehearsal 4-6, da vinci elevtive 6.30-9.00. lucky physics was cancelled. got abit of free time to memorise the lyrics. but was still very rush. when i had to leave for science centre around 6, i was so worried about choir. scared that they cannot remember the lyrics. ohwell. at least the performance was a success. yay. hahah. now i feel like planning an outing for choir to relax and chill. wheee. but hmm Lion's Home CIP coming up. haiz. and teacher's day coming up too. time to think of pressies for teachers! buhbyee!

sort of emo post

2009-07-31T23:16:00.008+08:00

有时我总在想，我到底为什么会这样。是对自己太没信心了吗？可是普通的 project presentation 我总觉得还好啊。可是总在一些事情发生后觉得不可思议，总在想，我真的做到了吗？我真的是如此吗？

就像刚才合唱团排位的时候，kar yee 抓紧我的手，说要跟我站在一块儿。顿时感到非常惊讶。认识她三年来，我从来不知道她对我的看法如何。是与我一样，把对方当成好朋友看待吗？还是认为我是一个很胖，很烦，整天在cca时候缠着她的丑女生呢？刚才听她那么一说，真的无法相信。她，是真的要和我站在一起吗？她，是真的喜欢我吗？我，真的可以令别人喜欢我吗？

可能是因为从小，就感觉没什么被爱过。我总是很担心自己做错事，没人疼。总是时时刻刻奉公守法，不胡闹，不闯祸，好让别人不讨厌我。总是尽心尽力地做好每件事，希望能让别人喜欢自己。在很多人面前，总有一种陌生的感觉，好像每个人都不喜欢我这样。或许是因为这样，所以我真的很珍惜身旁的人。学校的朋友们，我好像总尽量迁就她们，好让她们不排挤我。可是，有些时候我不经意地不同意她们的做法时，她们就真的反过来迁就回我了。总是在这些时候觉得很惊讶。我，真的是个好朋友吗？好到能让一大群人同意我的说法吗？我真的可以令别人喜欢我吗？

可能我是真的对自己太没信心了。总因为自己很胖，所以逛街时从来不买衣服，除了校裙外也从不穿裙子。有一次与朋友们逛街，她们都在衣店里看这个、试那个。我只好随意走走，不知还能做什么。

可能我是真的对自己太没信心了，所以总不会轻易地向别人敞开心怀。我好像觉得，自己在心旁早已在多年前筑起高高的围墙，不让任何人接近。因为，我非常害怕。害怕那个进了我心房的人离开的时候。朋友们，迟早要分开。有时甚至会闹翻。若朋友进了我的心房，她们离开时，我该如何是好？养狗，狗儿迟早会死。狗儿一旦死去，我该如何适应没有它的生活? 真的非常害怕别人丢下我一个人。被抛弃的感觉，一次就够了。。。所以呢，为了保护我自己，最简单的方法就是不要让别人太接近我，不要让别人太容易地进入我的心房。我潜意识应该是这样的吧。

但就因为如此，非常害怕令身旁的人难过。总尽力讨好他们。所以，当有人肯定我的时候，总感到非常惊讶。我，真的做到了吗？哪怕只是一句 “我要和你站在一起“，意义对我非常重大。原来，我是有人喜欢的。原来，自小没被疼不是因为我讨人厌的。原来，我对自己是如此没有信心的。。。

说说较正经的。去年被选进Christmas Island module, 今年当上NEA，被选为合唱团主席，被选入 da vinci elective module，这些都有如一场梦。这一切，真的太不真实了。我，是真的做到了吗？不是因为一时的运气？我，是真的有资格的吗？

有时我也不知道自己是个怎样的人。我喜欢读书，喜欢上学，喜欢放学后不留下来玩牌，直接回家，喜欢看故事书，喜欢看科学和地理杂志。这样子，我好像乖乖学生，mugger 和 nerd。可是，同时，我也喜欢流行音乐，喜欢在罗志祥来新办签唱会时老早就去排队，喜欢看很多偶像剧，喜欢去逛街买包包，买笔记本，习惯很晚才睡觉。这样看起来，我又好像时个坏怀的学生，爱玩，不认真念书。综合起来，我觉得比起那些真的是一味爱读书的人还差一些，又没有像那些爱玩的学生那么极端。有如 “比上不足，比下有余“，我到底该怎样，连自己都不知道。好怪哦。真的好怪哦。可能DISC questionnaire 能帮我认识我自己吧。

说了一堆话，也不知意义何在。本来想要post一些好玩的东西的，可是blogger有问题，不能上载照片，只好等下次再post了。就这样啦。

ps.今天放学后去bugis逛，看见一个非常漂亮的日记簿，就买下来了。看来，我是真的真的很喜欢买日记簿。那些纸上的一句句话，反映出我的内心深处的感受。好喜欢这些日记簿哦。看我几时才把家里的那几本写完，才用今天买的那一本吧。。。写日记，记载每天发生的点点滴滴，真的好好玩哦。过些时日，拿起来读读，会有意外的发现。不相信的话，你也试试看吧。从不后悔开始写日记。只恨有些晚上累得不要写。隔天就会内疚了。哈哈。

quiz?

2009-07-16T00:23:00.004+08:00

Just some personality quiz thing I did. Quite accurate I guess. Or maybe I should say this is all wrong. HAHAH after taking the statistics module last year, must learn not to believe in these!! But ohwell... =X

Your view on yourself:

Other people find you very interesting, but you are really hiding your true self. Your friends love you because you are a good listener. They'll probably still love you if you learn to be yourself with them.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.

The seriousness of your love:

You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.

Your views on education

Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:

You have plenty of dream jobs but have little chance of doing any of them if you don't focus on something in particular. You need to choose something and go for it to be happy and achieve success.

How do you view success:

You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.

What are you most afraid of:

You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.

Who is your true self:

You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

xuehe's blog. and stuff

2009-07-15T23:54:00.006+08:00

It's been a long time since I blogged. I shall blog about my other June stuff the next time. Today I'm here just to say a few things. hmm. Oh anyway today's 早报爆米花, my 感想 for the txy attachment was published. Thought it was too late when I sent it but (OMG) i had my own title and 版位. ohwell. 世事难料.

Okay anyway the reason of this post is that, I read two person's blog today. Both i read all the way to the archives. One made me feel like scolding someone, one made me feel like crying. It's like, people really aren't what they look like from outside. And I think that I should really be more observant of the people around me. And I really don't know if now I am "wearing coloured glasses to look at" one person, or if that person is really like that and not my problem. I don't know! I really don't. What can I do? It's like. The person i mentioned in my other post about the SLI rehearsal. I don't know if it is my problem or is the other person really like that. And I don't know what I can do to improve the situation. Crap la. I feel so useless. Everyday going to school happily coming back home happily but there's just so much that I feel so helpless at.

Ohwell a few happy things these days is that Hui Min and I had a lot of fun browsing through Teens, Teenage, Seventeen and I-weekly mags in class together and writing down what we want to buy. It feels really nice. Like something I wanted to do with a close friend since young. But I always didn't have the chance. Maybe it's cause Temasekians are just so guaii we don't read mags in school. Maybe it's cause in Year 1 and 2 I didn't really have a long-term close friend. But I was really happy these days. Yea. That's one thing.

Another thing is that I brought a bigbig lock and took locker number 3 outside the classroom! It's the one at eye-level so I don't have to bend down. And I have so much fun stuff inside like food, dictionary, scrap paper, magazines and others. And if I'm taking the skating for PE, I might put my skates there some day. But not over weekends cause weekends are for skating! I went to search the park connector map already. I shall try the Siglap Park Connector then continue to Bedok Park Connector then back to ecp. That's around 8km in total. Or should I take the Coastal, then to Changi, then to Pasir Ris, then to Tampines then bla bla? That adds up to 20++ km. Maybe not so soon. I should try the Siglap one first. I'm looking forward for my first time long-distance skating! Skating to and fro ecp is not challenging for me anymore!! =p OK i love skating! OH and the new skate park is open. Really freaky. I won't dare to try ever ever. Maybe I can try the one at the skate park near my house with really gentle slopes. Or maybe not. See how.

Ok another thing is that. HMM. I know more about one person! Through smses. Used to think that the person looks so stern and serious and like a bit loner. After smsing, found that actually quite nice. HAH it's always good to make a new friend! And really thankful for sort of calming me down while waiting for O-level oral.

OK I don't think anyone would understand what I meant. OK maybe chris and huimin will. But never mind, I shall stop now. OH WAIT maybe not. Just one more thinggg....

I've watched/rewatched many shows during the June hols. I can't believe I am like addicted now. Once again. Haiz. Below are the shows. OH AND a refined list of my loved-dog-breeds.

shows

命中注定我爱你

秋天的童话

爱情魔法师

心星的眼泪

恶作剧之吻

dog breeds

shih tzu

maltese

pomeranian

toy poodle

shetland sheepdog

siberian husky

old english sheepdog

golden retriever

labrador retriever

cavalier king charles spaniel

papillion

Yupp that's about it. I shall end here. It's such a long post, I just realised. And I wonder who will read it! =p

This is a post with so many stuff inside.

I wonder who will understand.

I wonder who will even read my blog.

I wonder wonder wonder...

What I can do...

How I can help...

When I will be such...

I feel like I'm living just to study and get grades.

There's just so many more things I can do to or with the people around me

There's just so many more things I should change about myself and the people around me

But apparently I'm doing none of them.

And so, why do I live?

and ps. this is not an emo post. just a qn i ask myself. not tt i dun wan to live.

vanness wu

2009-06-06T00:11:00.006+08:00

OH MAN. I had a great day today. For the attachment programme, I got to go for an interview with Vanness Wu and 2R !!!

It is the grand opening of the lingerie shop "rondavous" and they went to be the special guest. I followed huifen reporter there. She interviewed the shop owner, then 2R, and also Vanness of course.

There were 5 lamborghinis ok? That's very cool.

1 orange, 1 green, 1 black, 1 yellow, 1 red.

and ya today is just super cool

and i couldn't breathe when he "punched" me on my forearm.

eeeks!!

Ohwelll it was kind of awkward cause it is a lingerie shop. Bras, panties, boxers all around... hahah

AND AND AND champagne all around. And I can't drink. OHWELL.

Black Lambo (shop rondavous at the back)

Green Lambo

Orange Lambo

All 5 Lambos One after Another: Orange, Green, Black, Yellow, Red

I didn't get a chance to take the yellow and red one. They were drived off... =X

Lamborghini rainbow man...!!

What a nice experience...!

Makes me wanna be an yu le ji zhe

But can I do it?

Have to be nice

Have to be bold

Have to be pro

Have to not look like I'm super thrilled when I really am

Ohwell.. I dunno.... =X

Let the memory of today stay forever!!!!

emo again

2009-06-06T00:07:00.003+08:00

things won't change even if i'm not here. ohwait. maybe it will. yea. it will change... for the better. ohwell.

things would be better if i just disappear.

the saddest thing in the world is a friend's betrayal...

maybe... i should just disappear...

seeing that you'll be happier off without me

knowing that all of you don't really like me...

yea. what's the point?